29 March 1999

Well the rehersal camp I had in the weekend sucked, but then I knew it would. The older you are and the more shows you have done the less fun rehersals are. But the buzz of performing is always worth it. It was far too hot at Waiora. Dunedin is supposed to be cold!!!!!
Atleast on Saturday night I snuck out for a party, which was GREAT. I love to dance, even if I look like i'm having an epileptic fit. Though all of my friends there seem to be coupling up. With is scary, soon it'll just be me whose single. :o(. Anyway, I should go to my theater studies lecture.

26 March 1999

Just a quick note while I'm packing. I'm off for the weekend.

25 March 1999

Today I started poorly again. The ODT was running late and threw my whole morning out of whack. Then I kept drifting off in my Chem202 lecture. But I had theatre studies after that. And the performance Ange, Rob and I had been working on went really well. At lunch time I went to say "Happy Birthday" to a friend of mine, and she was horrible to me. If it wasn't her birthday I would have threatened to slap her, maybe. Then Bex took me shopping with her. She bought me lego to cheer me up :o). I loved her before, now I want her as my wife. My love is easily bought, especially with lego. Well i have to go now so I'm not late for my latin-american dance class.

24 March 1999

Today was a step up from yesterday. Just. It started terribly, so one had stolen one of my newspaper bundles so I had to walk home and call it in, and deliver the papers late. But then my replacement papers were plastic coated, which mage it more fun, and a little more suggestive (my pushing plastic covered cylinders into hospitible slots). Then I just generally had a bad morning, followed by a bad day. Though my Chem201 lab almost restored my faith in Chemistry. Now I just hate organic chemistry.

23 March 1999

If you haven't guess, I'm being depressed. it is not even that I like it, I'm just so used to it I can't fight it. At the rate that I'm going, soon for psychiatry fees I'll be owing.
I'm not in a great place right now. I don't know what set it off, but since mid last week I've been progressively getting worse. I might have to start going to the useless shrink I used to see. So she can sit saying "Happy Pills, Happy Pills, Happy.........". Basically life sucks and I want to pull out of Uni, coz I'm hating it all. Chemistry is hell. By some sick luck the mean old man who was nasty to me at course approval is my CHEM202 Lab Supervisor. If only I could die a slow and painful death. It'd be better than this life. Better than sharing a house with my hell-spawned mother. Who is even now kicking me off the computer. So I'm off. Maybe to chop pieces off myself and see how much blood I can lose before I pass out.
Bye.

22 March 1999

I had a busy weekend. I was out late on friday night and was almost late to the christening I gave a reading at on saturday morning and then after dropping off some videos to friends at Hayward hall, I went to a crappy party. Then on sunday i missed "earthworm Jim" due to a case of Daylight savings confusion. After that I had Gang Show rehersals, they were fun NOT. Then to finish the weekend off I went to the fireworks and could not find a single person i knew there (last year I went with ppl and kept meeting other ppl I wanted to spend the time with) and I got hit be falling ash. Yay for my weekend.

19 March 1999

Last night I had a meeting for "Students for a free tibet" and then had Latin-American dance lessons before coming home to an English assignment. Joy for me. I am so lucky. Bye for now.

17 March 1999

I didn't do my chem report that was due today, I am so bad. And my Laboratory Supervisor was not amuzed when I mimed handing in an invisible one. And he has fits of histerical laughter over bad math.
I also have two things due on friday that I haven't started yet. I am way too lazy. I have a gang show meeting tonite :(.
But i have my new book "Grimms fairy Tales" to keep me going. It is so morbid :o).

16 March 1999

Classes are happening. They haven't been all that much fun this week. I have a chemistry report due tomorrow. Joy for me. And I finally finished "The Eagle and the nightingales" today, it wasn't as good as Mercades Lackey's other books I've read, so it took me ages to finish it. I need to start sleeping more and playing less computer games all night. Other than that not much to say. So bye.

14 March 1999

i went to the Hayward Hall disco last night, it was lots of fun. I still have glitter everywhere. I should write more, but i'm still really tired, even after I slept in till 11 (as was quite late on my paper run).

12 March 1999

I went to "the little shop of horrors" last night, and it was great. Admittedly it wasn't quite as great as the movie but it was still great. I didn't get much sleep last night though as I was late home. Well I'm off for a night on the town now. Buh-bye.

10 March 1999

I went to my first lab for the year today :o(. It was long and boring. And has homework :o(. Then i went to the free tibet candle light vigual (?spelling?). Good night, I need to get in some sleep before the lil shop of horrors.

9 March 1999

This morning it was really wet, I got to chemistry, sat down in the lecture theater and shook out my hair. A few rows of people were not very happy with me. I am such a prick :o).
After chemistry I went and put another BIG lego set on lay-buy, I have another $230 to go until it is paid off. But lego is worth it.
Then I accidentally met up with my ex walking to a lecture. It went a lot better than I thought it would. I now know that I'm over it and that we can be friends. Which is good, coz one can never have too many friends. Even ones who know what small genitalia you have :^P.
After that I had a special theater studies tutorial, "introduction to the universities central library". And I was visibly drooling over a classmate on the tour. I am so getting desperate in my old age. Well I'm off to fix up some of my lego forest. Buh-bye.

8 March 1999

We are studying "The Rocky Horror Picture Show" at Theater Studies, I've lost all respect for higher education. I did pay off my lay-buy today though, so I have a big new lego set :o). I also got the new lego catalogue, and they have discontinued castle :o(. My reason for living is gone. I'll have to go around town and lay-buy as much castle lego and as many tree sets as possible, so i can make my forest bigger and keep it surrounded by castles. I'm off to sleep now. Buh-bye.

6 March 1999

Last night I got bored and went out anyway. I danced in the octagon as there was a band playing and then walked home with someone a had just meet there. It took about two hours as we stopped and got a pizza which we ate on the gardens sports feild. Luke (the guy I met/walked home with) and I had a very long talk about all sorts of things. The little things of life (eg. the nature of sin and redemption) and the big ones (eg. why pizza always goes rubbery in the microwave). It was lots of fun. Though I'm rather tired today because of it.
Then this morning i went to the dunedin festival procession, which is always fun. Anyway, I've got to go now. Have fun.

5 March 1999

I'm still feeling a tad crappy :o(. I think I might even stay home tonight (staying home on a friday is something I virtually never do now days. I don't think I have all year). I;m also slipping into a depressive phase, which doesn't help. I think I'll curl up in bed a listen to my Dusty Springfeild CDs (in tribute as she died a couple of days ago :(, and read some of the Mercedes Lackey book I'm reading ("The eagle and the nightingales").
The fact my mother is such a demon, that her mere existance is a mockery of all life doesn't help much either.
Bye for now. I'm off to be grumpy.

4 March 1999

I am still sick, but feeling a little better. My lectures today were okay, Chem was boring and Theater Studies was interesting, just as usual. Then after having Khmer (?spelling?) soup for tea I had Latin American Dance lessons. I've almost got the cha-cha right. I would probably have learned better if i hadn't spent half the class drooling over someone there. Anyway, night.

3 March 1999

I'm still sick, and off to bed now. Buh-bye.

2 March 1999

I'm sick :o(. It's just good I only had two hours of classes today. Coz I am being miserable. I also should really get my mother to look after my eftpos card, coz I keep spending money on stuff i can't afford. If the student allowance takes a while to go through I'm going to be in real trouble. Well I'm back to bed to try and get over this bug.