Summer rolls on, and I'm a tool of the economic machine.
Nobody sensible believes in ghosts anyway. That's because they're all such liars
1st January 2003 - Circumcision of Our Lord.
'Appy New Year.
The last few days has just been work, work, work.
After work yesterday I came home tidied up and went to Midget's theme party with Tash. I even convinced Simon to go. It wasn't too bad a party and we headed in to the Octagon for midnight, whihc I spent standing with Simon and Tash while we tried to work out where Midget had gone. We never found her again. It still ended up a pretty good night.
Today I went to my mother's to borrow some stuff and check on her cat, it doesn't get treated right when my brother isn't there, as as such was all clingy and sad. Then I came home and stuffed around until Aaron turned up, then just after he got here Midget arrived and kidnapped us both off to Warrington to go and swim in the sea. I must have looked a complete freak in T-shirt and hybrid boxers. And then this bit of eye candy that was in the water near us started staring at me, and kept it up everytime we were near each other on the beach the rest of the time there. I'm assuming it was evils. As I can't think of any real other reason for someone that hot to stare at me; just the "how dare you ugly-up the beach, you fat bastard" stare, which I'm pretty sure is what I was getting. But on some level it was quite cool that someone that hot was actually noticing I existed. I am SO tragic like. Anyway, then me and Aaron got fish and chips and that was about my day. I've juts been lazing at home since. And I think Simon is pissed at me, and I'm not sure why. Anyway, I should probably go and sleep.
Today's quote is from Coraline. Neil Gaiman. Bloomsbury 2002. p.98.
Willow (about Buffy): "Guess she's out with Riley. You know what it's like with a spanking new boyfriend."
Anya (re: Xander): "Yes, we've enjoyed spanking."
7th January 2003 - Keys of Septuagesima.
I'm going crazy.
Well, since new years I've pretty much done nothing except stuff around and work. On the 2nd, I don't remember having done anything, so it's probably fair to assume I didn't, and I have worked atleast 6 1/2 hours every day since. Including the 5:30 in the evening till 12:30 at night on Sunday evening followed by the 9am start yesterday (Monday) morning. Yay for no sleep and a nasty job.
Atleast Midget dragged me out last night and I got to have fun and be social like for a while, which is a much better use of twelfth night than the watching TV and playing Pokemon I had on the cards.
Actually the social bit was very needed. I am getting all weird and lonely and really not liking being alone at the moment. It's a complete pain in the arse as I'm not exactly a hugely social person and I don't really have any of the kind of close friends that I can just go hang out with. It's the whole me not being very likable thing biting me in the arse. In fact I think Midget is the only person who considers me a close friend - but then maybe she doesn't and just says she does out of pity. And I'm pretty sure most of those I consider my good friends don't actually like me particularily much. I'm being all grumpy and depressed, which probably isn't helping anything. And i don't really have any reason to be. In fact, I can be kind of happy in the fact that over the last two two of my friends have said somethingto the effect that they finally understand what I see in my ex, though I think there was still an implied "but you are crazy to have not gotten over it, you sick obsessive freak".
Anyway, I might go.
Today's quote is from Buffy episode "The I in Team".
Buffy (about Riley's lunch selection): "... A Twinkie! That's his lunch? Oh, he is so gonna be punished."
Willow: "Everyone's getting spanked but me."
13th January 2003 - Oct. of Epiphany. Middle lessons of S. Hilary.
Okay, I suck. I haven't written in ages. Well, last week Monday through Thursday I was all 9 to 3:30 at work and then coming home sore and grumpy and tired and then either just watching TV or playing computer games or being kidnapped by Midget for long conversations about nothing.
Friday there was a nice change with a 10 to 4:30 shift, then coming home to blob out and watch crap telly.
Saturday, much of the same. Work again from 10 to 4:30. And then home to some more blobbing, eating of Chinese takeaways, watching of Star Trek and I'm pretty sure that was the night I had the long late night chat to Midget.
Yesterday I had my first day off that wasn't a public holiday since christmas eve. SO I enjoyed most of it sitting around doing massive amounts of nothing. Then in the evening I headed around and visited my family who've been away on holiday, and then went to my grandparent's for dinner, before returning to a quiet night of blobbing.
Today, I stuffed around a bunch more and then headed into town to cheak in on work and do a little shopping. I got to work too late and Nick had already left, so I couldn't find out my shifts. So I did some shopping, tried to pick up a book I had ordered but found that they had lost my order and the book was no longer available, so now I can't get it, bugger it. So I bought Coraline instead. Then I bumped into Alana and Aaron, and went with them and got myself Buffy Season Four, Part Two. Then after stopping at Friendly Satay for dinner with Aaron, and coffee at the Governor's with a girl called Dot and a boy called Peter whom I went to school with, and a quick stop to see Becky and Kez, I'm now home. And watching Buffy.
Today's quote is from Buffy episode "The I in Team".
Spike: "You know why I really hate you, Summers?"
Faith-in-Buffy: "'Cause I'm a stuck-up tight-ass with no sense of fun?"
Spike: "Well, yeah, that covers a lot of it."
Faith-in-Buffy: "'Cause I can do anything I want, and instead I choose to pout and whine and feel the burden of Slayerness? I mean, I could be rich. I could be famous. I could have anything. Anyone. Even you, Spike. I could ride you at a gallop until your legs buckled and your eyes rolled up. I've got muscles you've never even dreamed of. I could squeeze you until you popped like warm champagne, and you would beg me to hurt you just a little bit more. And you know why I don't? (pauses) Because it's wrong."
15th January 2003 - Maurus, Ab.
Yesterday I had work, then afterwards went to post a CD to Tina and bumped into Oli, who then stood in queue with me and wandered around town with me afterwards. During wuch time I bought Buffy Season Five Part 2. So I now have all available Buffy DVDs. Yay. And I got a Buffy calendar for $6.24, which has lent marked, which is all good, as it stops me having to work it out myself.
Today, it was work again. I returned home to find a small parcel from the US. Wormgirl had sent me an xmas present. Yay.
Today's quote is from Buffy episode "Who Are You".
quote pending - please send suggestions
16th January 2003 - Marcellus, Pope and Mart.
Okay, I randomly stopped writing yesterday.
It's now Thursday morning, and I'm avoiding getting up.
Actually, I think I said all I had to say yesterday. Being that I don't seem to have much of a life these days.
Anyway, I should probably go get ready for work.
Today's quote is from .
quote pending - please send suggestions
21st January 2003 - Agnes, V. and Mart.
And again I suck at the writting in this thing.
Ummm, last Thursday I had work and then came home and collapsed in front of Buffy for the evening.?
Friday I again had work. For some reason I came home all uber-depressed and miserable, so I went to buy fish and chips but my usual takeaways was closed, so I had to go to Mei Wah, and I wasn't impressed at all, in fact, not only was the girl who served me all nasty and mean, but the food was plain terrible. So I returned home even grumpier, than after coming online and finding out Simon wasn't really up to being used as a crying post, and not being able to think of anyone else in town who'd do, I tried to cheer myself up with more Buffy. Bad plan, being that I was up to "The Body", which is seriously not a cheering up type episode, and neither was "Forever", so I ended up a big weepy pathetic mess. I kinda needed Tina or Wormgirl to be in town. I'm pretty sure either of them would have coped with a miserable pile of useless me reasonably well. And what made it entirely stupid, which lead to my feeling even worse, was that I had no idea what I was depressed about.
Saturday morning brought the realisation it's probably my drugs, which I was going to go back to the doctor about the first time I realised they were screwing me up, but still haven't. Anyway, I headed off for a crap day at work, the order sucked and I mostly had nothing to do. So I was much less than fun. Then after work I came home and washed up and dressed up and headed off to the 21st of a childhood friend and neighbour, who has grown up to look all model like and all of her friends are all pretty. Apart from a couple of her parent's friends, I was by far the ugliest guest. Darn pretty people who manage to have entirely pretty circles of friends. And she has so damn many of them. This after her father's partner was all 'this last year has been very hard, and she doesn't have near as many friends as she used to'. I am such a no friends loser. I mean, at my 21st family friends out-numbered friends of my own. And her is Becky with her massive horde of pretty friends, and the knowledge it used to be an even bigger one. Sometime before midnight I got sick of it and came home to bitch about damn pretty people with someone I barely know - and that through my ex - over ICQ.
Sunday, I stuffed around for a while and then decided to finally deliver Simon's xmas present to him. After which I sat around watching him clean his oven and generally enjoying pointless conversation while I carefully avoided the nasty chemicals he was spraying around. He, Renate and I went to Portabello for fish and chips, they make very nice ones out there, it's just a shame about the length of the drive to get there, and the windiness of the road.
Yesterday I wasted my morning doing nothing much, then met Alana, Rach and Chris for lunch at Tull. Alana was shouting big health filled sandwhiches, whihc was most nice. Then I dropped past work and found that I have only my friday and saturday shifts this week, so I can blob out a bit, which I think I maybe need a little. My body is used to blobbing the entire summer away each year. I also got my diss back from the english department. Then just after I got home Oli rang to see if I was in, and then came round a while later. So then an afternoon of random chatting about nothing, and my paying Briget out, while Oli read my THEA304 play and bits of my dissertation, mocking both - and picking out lots of mistakes which I had missed. I guess that happens though. Anyway, mid-evening we headed off to get chinese takeaways and eat them on the Alambra field down by varsity. I am such a fatty. Of the last four days the only one I didn't have takeaways on was Saturday, when I just didn't eat as I wasn't feeling very food friendly. Then I came home, as I was too tired to go to arc with them.
Today I've gone bugger all, I've just been dozing, and watching Buffy and playing Pokemon. Though tonight I am actually off to arc, once Tina has rung.
Today's quote is from .
quote pending - please send suggestions
26th January 2003.
Okay, I haven't written in ages, but I'm supposed to be packing as I'm going to Christchurch this afternoon, so I should go do that.
Today's quote is from .
I'm not supposed to like people I like as people.
30th January 2003.
Ummm. going back two entries. Well, the night of the entry two above I went to arc and had fun, it was a pretty good night, though Aaron was less than assumed by my sharing time between him and Tash.
The day after, was over a week ago and I don't actually remember what I did.
Actually, I think I'll write tomorrow.
Today's quote is from the craziness that is Tina's brain.
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