Self destructive niceness

I kept talking to Shitlord's other other guy because he is pretty much where I was four weeks ago and I feel for him.
But it is revealing more and more reasons why I should never trust Shitlord ever again.  More of more lies and betrayals keep being revealed.
He is bad people.

And I am still painfully in love with him.

Also, it seems I did get the shittest treatment.  I am not sure if it was because I was the local idiot (though not the only local entanglement as has been revealed).  Or it was because I was the least desperate for his love, so he had to destroy me enough to be entire dependent on him.

It does seem he preys on those who will need him entirely - and thus give up on everything that conflicts with his evasive bullshit.

 All of this is just hurting myself further.  So much hurting.