Was feeling a bit weird just now. So I took my temperature. About a degree above normal.
At least I have not magically got well while waiting for the hospital referral. Which would be embarrassing and wasteful. No idea how long that referral will take to actually come through though.
Friday, I did not wash. I only left the house at all as Carla was dropping something off and took me to the supermarket. Otherwise played some Pokemon and watched some YouTube and some Netflix.
Saturday, I was too mentally exhausted for no reason to even play Pokemon so my switch spent the day playing YouTube - mostly Critical Role. Late afternoon I got a text from a friend inviting me to go and see Little Women at the cinema. So I had a very pleasant evening out with Susan. I also discovered how much Shitlord broke me about socialising. I am very uncomfortable with kindness from people who I don't know I have earned it from. I have been friends with Susan since 1997. She was the first school friend that I came out to. But we haven't been super close over the past decade or two. So her shouting tickets felt really awkward and I had to run through the anxiety of working out if there was an obligation being placed on me by it.
Friends being kind should not make me uncomfortable.
Too messed up by how much kindness was used as a tool of control by my ex. I am broken.
After I got home I started watching the new Netflix show Locke & Key. I spent today finishing off the season after it proved to be more riveting than I had expected. I also made stew. Once again using high quality stir fry to make stew. Nicer meat really does lead to a nicer result, for all that I was raised on the concept that stew is for the terrible meat. On this another day without Pokemon as it seems too much like thinking......
Oh, and Firmin visited and gifted me his most expensive boardgame.
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