So I have continued with the not really sleeping. I have been a bit dazed for too long now and it is leading to me outsourcing my decisions to whoever happens to be nearby.
On Thursday I had lunch with Oli - it has been pretty much a weekly thing on Thursday long enough to feel like a plan even though they are all conveniences of the day. I had also been vacuuming my new unit and discovered that some of the plugs trigger the circuit breakers when they are used. Not a great sign in a new build.
I need to write in this more regular as I remember nothing else of Thursday and Friday is also a blur. I know I got up early and opened my new flat as the site manager, Steve, had said the electrician would be there "tomorrow" the day before. Oh, and Tina rang and got my to go aquajogging - so that was much of the morning. But after lunch I am pulling a blank. Bank app statement says I had had Chinese takeaways which I have only the vaguest recollection of. All I remember of the night is WandaVision.
Saturday, I was sore. I didn't do a lot but did spent some time wondering if this was what putting your back out feels like. I think I had just tweaked a muscle in my back somehow as by evening it was mostly okay. I remember I ate airfried dumplings with broccoli salad for lunch. But again lack of sleep and not writing daily means I remember nothing else of what I did. That may have been when I finished packing the books from my room, and the books that I don't like.
[edit]Wait, I am a moron. I went for a walk around Sullivan's Dam with a friend. It was pretty relaxed and nice. So I did do something once I got moving in the afternoon - after someone from Facebook Marketplace came and took away my spare bed. [/edit]
Sunday I went fridge shopping. I went back and forward between Harvey Norman and Noel Leemings making no decisions at all. Then my mother turned out to be out appliance shopping too. She took over and bulldozed through all the indecision. So I bought the one she liked, and somehow also got bulldozed into the extended warranty scam that I never would have got myself. Hopefully it is delivered soon. The timing was a bit vague.
Otherwise was playing BG3 and pretending packing wasn't a thing.
Today......
Early morning text from the friend I have mentioned getting coffee with multiple times in recent weeks. We had a wander around the warehouse while he collected some things he needed. Then he asked if we could go somewhere and have a talk. I stupidly said my house would be fine, thinking conversation would make a pleasant background to packing. The conversation he intended had less talking than the one I thought we were headed to do.
So for the second time running when I end up being snogged by someone I hadn't really considered kissing, he's married. And this time I don't even have the excuse of having not known.
But he is kind of a friend and when he persisted after the initial rebuff it was too awkward not to go with it.
Then things got awkward. And he went off acting like everything was fine but I kind of expect that the friendship may have been nipped in the bud by it.
And I have no idea what his intention was, he had been pretty clear that I wasn't what he liked - the change of mind was unexpected.
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