Tuesday I made it out of the house and to hospital for my brain poking. Psychodynamic psychotherapy had got to the point he asked me to talk through something mentioned in the referral letter that he had avoided reading for weeks so it didn't colour his view of me.
And so we talked about "the reason I dislike Anglicans".
It was not fun but it is done. Then did some examination of very present things rather than follow the trauma trail, so by the end of the session my brain had been rubbed fresh enough that I wasn't left fixating on pain from the mid 90s. The notion that some of my anxiety things may be PTSD was raised, which I am not sure how I feel about.
Then home, after some shopping to get the Lego viking I failed to get last week and use it to make a centaur-viking.
I think mostly all I did for the later part of the day was read that fat book. As I finished it slightly after midnight.
Wednesday, I spent working on my Pathfinder game with watching too much YouTube. In the evening I met a friend coming out of work, having shamelessly abused our friendship by getting her to do the printing for my game for me. I grabbed noodle soup and then headed to me game. It went very well. I think my players are enjoying it - it is not going exactly as I planned but it is working enough. Though the walk home after took well over an hour as my body had started to complain about the moving and the heavy bag.
On Thursday morning I noticed Cyberpunk had updated again and decided I should give playing it another go, possibly for the first time this year - it seems a long time since I had given up on the game. At lunch time Oli dropped by for a cuppa and a chat, which was very nice. Then after work Firmin came around to borrow my Nintendo Switch, so I got a second decent chat in. Yay for friends.
The day also featured a video call "breakup" with someone I'd never met because the internet and my sending people confusingly mixed messages. I am bad at talking to people. But it had been a month or two since I possibly broke anyone...
Today, I finally started to unpack Lego. Having got rid of my big box of clothes I don't intend to keep last night, making it a viable next step.
My new flat has so much less space to Lego. It is a problem. Almost half my castles will have to stay in boxes as there is nowhere to put them.
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