Having chatted about it with a couple of friends who are therapists, but as friends will very much never be my therapist, I am willing to say I was being a touch unfair.  Both mentioned my tendency toward ‘masking’, which is apparently a thing (as I mentioned in the last post).  Trust mental health professionals to pathologise putting on a cheerful face.

Also, neither agreed with my entirely blaming myself, which is how I know they were being wilfully wrong.

Haven’t done much, but my role playing games were back on so have at least had a couple of nights out being social with nerds, and also a night out for dinner with Simon, Joe and Firmin (we did Speight’s, it was nice even with one of the kitchen staff being awkwardly overly friendly at me due to his having been friends with Shitlord back in the day).

Oh, and I had to edit the November 2004 entry on here to remove neopets imbedded pictures as blogspot had decided that they were malware.  Which was weird.