So the guy I was sort of dating late last year picked a bit of a fight with me on a dating app last night after mining things I said for insults that hadn't been there unless the reader really wanted to interpret them that way. And then just kept at me with pretty adversarial messages that were also very clearly aimed at trying to argue that I was the problem.
So I think that is now over, and that he wanted to walk away with the moral high ground.
At least, if that wasn't what was going on, then I am very fucking confused by what was going on.
It was so focused, and so out of nowhere.
I'm me. I assume everything is my fault. So for a chunk of the conversation I was like "Oh, all these faults that aren't the ones I know about to add to my list of things wrong with me - sounds about right" but as it went on eventually logic kicked in with a "wait a minute..."
I will admit I had been thinking it was probably a situation where we probably shouldn't progress things and should just be friends, and probably should have been clearer about that, but after last night I am not so convinced he is someone I would want to be friends with.
I think the only actually arseholish thing I did was milk the dermatitis situation to avoid having to have the actual awkward "I think we shouldn't sleep together" conversation by hiding behind the "I am currently out of commission, medically" - which was me being chickenshit about confrontation. Though there was some miscommunication along the way as well.
Otherwise my life in recent weeks has just been adjusting to my changing in meds dosage. It is slowly settling down. I can mostly stay awake through the day now, and generally form sentences when I need to. So things have improved.
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