Semester is over, and I have five weeks of.... not so much holidays, as focusing on my Honours topic.
Brad: I've done a lot; God knows I've tried To find the truth. I've even lied. But all I know is down inside All: I'm bleeding... Janet: And super heroes come to feast To taste the flesh not yet deceased. And all I know ... is still the beast All: Is feeding... Oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh, Oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh Oooh, oooh, aaah, aaah. Narrator: And crawling on the planet's face Some insects called the human race... Lost in time And lost in space And meaning. All: Meaning.
1st June 2002
Well, I have't written in since Wednesday last week, which would be about ten days ago.
Thursday, 23rd. Ummm, it was way too long ago. Though I do remember I was being all moppy, and was just a little grumpy at my students in their final lab with me. And I was good and didn't hit on the exceptionally attractive student - who was a little older than me, so it would have been less dodgy - but still... Then after Beowulf I went to see Ian, and he wasn't there, he'd had to take the afternoon off to look after his wife who was unwell. Then in the evening I had to babysit my beast of a brother.
Friday, I presented at Chaucer again, but only for half the lecture, before Chris, who quite obvously hadn't actually read his tale in the original and had read none of the notes, so gave a less than perfect spiel on "Sir Thopas". He kept misquoting the same bit, even after Ian had quite clearly pointed out what it actually said. My Thea304 lecturer told me to cut someone out of my play and gave me a big list of other changes to do over the weekend. And I went shopping for Tina. And that's pretty much what I remember of that Friday.
Saturday the 25th. I think I might have actually spent a bit of the morning doing homework. Then in the afternoon I had to babysit my little beast of a brother. Until it was time to go to Tina's birthday. She came down to Dunedin and had a pary, it was pretty good, even if I don't like very many of her friends at all. Too many scary roleplayers. It was good to see Tina, who for some reason I'm really missing. Like Wormgirl, who I think is still in Korea, she only skipped the country a couple of weeks back, and I already want her home.
Sunday, I spent a big chunk of the day with Tina and her brother. And then came home to do homework and avoid the temptation of playing in the snow. Though I did snowball the flatmate. I also found out that Si had visited on Saturady while I was babysitting - so I missed a visit :o(.
Monday, I worked on my play until my final playwriting class. Then came home and watched Digimon, before Alana fed me for the second week in a row, and I shamelessly hit on one of her friends, who I know I don't have a chance with, so it was safe, and thus a lot of fun. Then I came home and did homework.
Tueday, I got up early to do translations for Beowulf. Then headed into class, and after shouting my classmate Michiel lunch (it was my turn, well, more than my turn, he has paid a few times...) and doing some work at the library, I came home and stuck back into my play. And that's pretty much how the rest of Tuesday went. Except for an Ultima Online break in the evening.
Wednesday, I woke with a nastily sore and stiff neck, I could barely move my head, and DARN it hurt. So feeling very crappy I climbed into my sleeping bag so it would support my head a bit, and did some more work on the play until I went in and talked to the lecturer about it for a while. He demanded some rather major alterations. Which was a little scary being that I only had two days to go until it was to be handed in in the final version. Over lunch I read the reading fpor my Romantic lit class, lecture notes someone took while listening to Coleridge lecture on his opinions of Shakespeare. Then it was home, to curl up and try and keep the weight off my neck, which kept causing nasty spasms down my back and just generally being painful. And in all my pain I forgot to take my pill, for the first time since I've been on them. Oh well.
Thursday I woke up early from neck relate discomfort, but for the most part I felt a LOT better. I mean, I wasn't in constant agony, so I spent the morning working on my play, after a brief break to download some freaky Sims skins from here. They have some freaky skins. But mostly the day was play related. And I went to my Beowulf class having done no translation at all, and making a complete dick of myself by proving how utterly crap at translating I am. then ian was really nice about how little work I've done on my honours topic, but did threaten that he would have to start making me do some serious work. In fact he turned my 5 week break into five weeks of honours work. Yipee. Then Thursday evening was spent on my play, with a few Sims breaks.
Friday, I got up early and read as much of "The Tale of Melibee" as I could, before doing a bit of play work, and heading off to my Chaucer class. It was kind of cool, though Chris was getting on my nerves, possibly because I was rather tired from being up till almost 2am working on my play, and then getting up just after 6 to do readings. Then I came home and did more work on my play, until I gave up in disgust and printed it out, in single space, as in double it would have taken 43 pages, it took 22 as it was. Then in the evening while I was cooking tea, Simon and Renate turned up, and renate kept me in the kitchen while Simon was in my room doing somethign I wasn't allowed to see. Normal people in my room freaks me out, but for some reason when it's Si it's not so much of a worry. And after he requested a screw driver I knew he was just taking my computer to bits, and he's the one person who is allowed in it - being that he built it and all. While he was still here Aaron turned up. After Si and Renate headed off, me and Aaron watched some Buffy. Buffy is all good.
Today, I babysat my brother, as he had the flu and it was interfering with whatever it was that my mother had planned. Then I came home and did huge amounts of crap all. Anyway, it's well after 12, and I need sleep. So I can get up in the morning and hopefully be able to start downloading Buffy.
Today's quote is "Super Heroes" from The Rocky Horror Picture Show.
So you learnt what? so you do what? so you feel really sorry for whom? so your whole lifes assumptions are based upon your own narrow point of view, you hate,you love, you feel, you do, but all in all you dont love, you really feel, you want, you expect and you trust upon the universal laws of IM OWED!! Go hard, go out and go and get want you want, wait for NOTHING, nothing, cos when you wait you get NOTHING, life is what you put into it, regardless of how meaningfull, or meaningless it may have seemed or it may seem to you. Get off your arse and kick butt, take control, I dont want to hear your sorry tales, I want to hear and learn from your success, and in doing so you may tell me in all comfort your sorrow, cos it has an ending I want to hear. Dont look outward, firstly look inward, know what you want, then out and get it.
10th June 2002
Sunday the second. Tina was down, and she came around with Jarod, and they made me watch A Knights Tale, which only had two things that made it bearable. Kate and humour. And that's about the limit of what I remember from the day.
Monday. I played computer games and was generally not productive. Though I did download the pilot episode of Buffy, where someone else plays Willow, and it's just weird.
Tuesday. I went to varsity and returned my interloaned books. While at varsity my 'puter downloaded the Buffy final. Which made life all good.
Wednesday I did some work on my honours project, and played computer games, and I'm sure I did something else, but I can't think what, so maybe I didn't.
Thursday, after a morning playing Ultima Online and making skins for the Sims, I went into the varsity library and failed to do work, then had a meeting with Ian, followed by a good telling off from his masters student. Then I ran home in under 20 minutes and managde to not miss any of Digimon.
Friday I went to the new warehouse for the first time. It is pretty big, but somehow not very interesting, though I did buy The Monster Book for Buffy the Vampire Slayer and may yet go back and buy the Cyndi Lauper DVD - which would just be cool to have. Then in the evening I went out with Aaron, Midget and Duncan. It was pretty good, and the 80s night at Re-Fuel was SO cool. Even if I spent the whole thing drooling over someone. Then Midget walked me home and stayed for a couple of hours, which was very nice.
Saturday. Hmmmmm. Mind blocked... can't remember. I know I copied some stuff for my brother, and delivered it over, and played lots of Ultima Online and The Sims.
Yesterday, I stuffed around all morning, then walked up Signal Hill from Logan Park with Renate, before going to my grandparents for tea. My grandmother feed me so much, I think she is worried I'm not eating right. But it was good, so i can't complain. I also was given my mother's old microwave, so my flat finally has the ability to microwave meals. YAY.
This morning I was up early and off to work for Rogan McIndoe stuffing envelopes with confidentual contents. I got paper cut, of the ten people there I was the only one that did. And I spent much to much time flirting at one of the others who was pretty nice on the eyes, and entirely unobtainable. Typical of me anyway. Then after work Alana bought me lunch and I came home and have stuffed around since.
Actually, my flatmate was away from Wednesday through Sunday, which meant I had the flat to myself, which was creepy.
And since Thursday I've been exchanging emails with Canadian government, I'm trying to find out if I'm already a Canadian or not, so far it looks like I probably am.
And I have to start packing, as I'm leaving for Christchurch in just over a day to visit Tina. I've managed to get a ride there, I have no idea how I'm getting home. Yay for me.
Today's quote is an email I was sent by Sam Cornell (ie. a total stranger) a few weeks ago. Yay for strangers thinking so little of me..
Ever since I was a young boy, I've played the silver ball. >From Soho down to Brighton I must have played them all. But I ain't seen nothing like him In any amusement hall... That deaf dumb and blind kid Sure plays a mean pin ball ! He stands like a statue, Becomes part of the machine. Feeling all the bumpers Always playing clean. He plays by intuition, The digit counters fall. That deaf dumb and blind kid Sure plays a mean pin ball ! He's a pin ball wizard There has got to be a twist. A pin ball wizard, S'got such a supple wrist. 'How do you think he does it? I don't know! What makes him so good?'
21th June 2002
Okay, haven't written in eleven days, which is becoming more and more like me.
On the 11th I went to varsity and issued a big pile of books for my hons topic and photocopied some articles. And came home and played 'puter games.
On the 12th I got up in the morning and packed, then played some Ultima before hopping into Michiel and Cathy's car and going with them to Christchurch. The trip was nice. Then I got to Tina's, and she wasn't home, but the hottest of her flatmates let me in and showed me to Tina's room. Where I waited until she return, and then spent the night distracting her from her efforts to do homework and was only useful in that I went and got Pizza for tea.
Thursday the 13th I lay about until lunch time then went to T-Col and sat around for a few hours while Tina tried to finish her homework. And then we went back to Tina before heading into the city for Burger King and to watch Spiderman. It was vaguely crap, but a whole lot better than X-men.
Friday, I finally managed to make Tina go to town for shopping, even if only a very quick trip. And bought me some geeks books. And Tina signed up to the library there.
Saturday we spent reading and sleeping, as on Saturday Tina crashes.
Sunday, about as productive and eventful. Though we did go to Riccarton Mall to do a little shopping.
Monday I came home on the bus. It snowed on the way and was a pretty cool trip, even if the bus had absolutely no eye candy. Then when I was walking through Dunedin with my luggage I found Aaron who helped my carry it all home. Then after he left I went and visited Si. Which was... probably not the smartest thing to do, and then came home via the fish'n'chips shop and the stupermarket to catch up on Ultima Online.
Tuesday I went to town with Aaron and Alana,and picked up my mark from theatre studies. I got 80.4% for the most work I have ever done for a paper. But atleast it isn't going to drag me down from a first class hons, should I get any other decent marks. In the evening I went to Kezia's birthday fish'n'chips night, which was fun, and I was the token non-lesbian.
Wednesday, I visited my dog in the morning as Mum rang to say he was pretty much dying, and then came back to my flat and stuffed around. Then in the afternoon I went to Star Wars Episode II with my cousin and her boy (who paid). It wasn't too bad as utter shite goes, but I don't think I'd pay to see it.
Yesterday I stuffed around.
*DISTRACTED*
Today's quote is "Pinball Wizard" by The Who..
Every night seems dinner and wine Saturday days I was never in love, never had the time In my hustle and hurried world Laughing my self to sleep, waking up lonely I needed someone to hold me, oh It's such a crazy home town It can drag you down Till you run out of dreams So you party all night to the music and lights But you don't what happiness means I was dancing in the dark with strangers No love around me When suddenly you found me, oh
23rd June 2002
Thurday was about where I got up to. Ummm, yes, I stuffed around in the morning, then headed into varsity and did a bit of work before Lizzie had a go at me for about 3/4 of an hour about my lack of work ethic - which admittedly I deserved, but still. At three I went in to my weekly meeting with Ian Jamieson, and he threatened to leap off the Burns building if I didn't start getting work done. but then took it back in case I decided to call his bluff. And to think that for a while there I had been a fair whack ahead of most of the other hons students. Ah well. Then in the evening I had to go home to bury my dog. Which wasn't really a big happy ending to the day. When I got back to my flat I came online feeling all crappy and needing to talk to someone and the only people online were Debbie (who I don't really know) and Si (who wasn't talking, as was probably not actually there), so I sat and worked myself into a lovely bout of depression. Go Me.
Friday, I got up and played Ultima, and wrote the entry above, while all still in my sleeping bag. Then Aaron told me he was coming to fetch me to go shopping for Midget, so I had to stop writing - thus the random and abrupt end, and go shower and egt ready and such. Then we spent about five hours shopping and still ended up with rather uninspiring gifts. Ah well. Then I stopped in at Kezia's on the way home to deliver her somewhat late birthday present and watch Digimon with her. And she gave me Civ III, which I came home and have spent almost every spare moment since playing. But back to Friday evening, I headed off to Midget's 21st, after utterly failing to scrounge up a date. But then who would want to go anywhere with me.
And on that note I'm going to randomly end again. As I'm too tired and grumpy to write any more, so I'm off to go to sleep.
Today's quote is from "Every Woman In The World" by Air Supply..
My friend the communist Holds meetings in his RV I can't afford his gas So I'm stuck here watching tv I don't have digital I don't have diddly squat It's not having what you want It's wanting what you've got I'm gonna soak up the sun I'm gonna tell everyone To lighten up (I'm gonna tell 'em that) I've got no one to blame For every time I feel lame I'm looking up I'm gonna soak up the sun I'm gonna soak up the sun
25th June 2002
I am getting so terrible at actually finishing entries.
So Midget's 21st, it was passable. Actually, it was mostly fun, I sat and chatted to people, including Bob's dates - he brought two - bastard, I couldn't even scrounge up one. And later in the night decided I am definately not a huge Family Barton fanboy. Midget's tribe scares me. And that girl is such a touchy-feely drunk. She's almost as bad as her big sister, whom I was forced to yelp "Hands!!!" at. Then once she was kissing porcelain, a group of us headed off to go clubbing. It was only when we were standing at the bottom of the Chez Slease steps, that we realised we would all rather just scatter off to our homes.
Saturday. I'm pretty sure I wasted a fair whack of the day playing Civ III. Then in the mid-afternoon I had to head home and babysit my beastly lil brother for a while as my mother had been set up on a date by... I think her workmates... but anyway, I babysat until it was time to go to the Verkade's Yule party. Which was mostly fun - of the playing Trivial Pursuit in groups variety. The sacrificing of the gingerbread pig was vaguely classy though, and made the night. After the party I dropped back past my mother's as I had left my glasses behind, and fortunately she was still up and about. So I ended up having a long chat with her. And now want to break her ex even more than I did beforehand.
Sunday. I played a pile of Civ III. And some Ultima Online. But mostly Civ III. I'm sure I must have done something else during the day. But I can't think what. Then in the evening I had a chat with Si, and I thought he was pissed off at me, but maybe I was just imagining it. Though what I thought he was angry at me about was something entirely outside my control, or even my knowledge.
Monday morning Michiel came around and talked Beowulf with me for a while, and then about a vocab tester program he is writing. People who computer program for fun are a worry. Then I headed down to varsity, where I had lunch with him, and bumped into one of Bob's friends, and found out what chain of events had lead to the Si possibly being grumpy at me the night before. It's always fun when people who don't really know you or the situation try to help. Yay for good intentions. Then I went to town and picked up photos (of Worm's farewell, Tina and Giffy's graduation and of my dog) and returned a library book I doubt I'll ever read before returning home to play Civ III. But before I got playing I remembered I was supposed to get some groceries, so headed to the stupermarket, bumping into Alana and Aaron on the way back, and ended up not going home, but to Alana's, where her mother fed me. Then after tea I came home and finally played some Civ, while Aaron watched TV, as he had tagged along and I was being a crappy host.
This morning I got up and played out the Civ game I started yesterday, Cultural Victories are such a cop-out, I shall have to deactive that option. then it was about lunch time, so I decided I really had to start working, and thus until this evening I have wasted today staring at Burrow's A Reading of Sir Gawain and the Green Knight but not actually getting more than a few more pages threw it.
And that is about all I have to say. If I keep writing I'm going to end up ranting about the nature of evil, which is one of the things I spent a far chunk of this afternoon pondering about while trying to do work.
Today's quote is from "Soak Up the Sun" by Sheryl Crow & Jeff Trott..
Sunny came home to her favorite room Sunny sat down in the kitchen She opened a book and a box of tools Sunny came home with a mission She says days go by I'm hypnotized I'm walking on a wire I close my eyes and fly out of my mind Into the fire
29th June 2002
I've been suffering much worse than usual insomnia since Sunday, and it's making my life unproductive. I keep doing things multiple times and then remembering halfway through... wait, I just did this already. Stupid crappy head... I should just chop it off and start over with out it. Being the headless man could work for me, I need some sort of novelty to attract people....
Anyway, on Wednesday (26th) I finally got into Burrow properly and took a pile of notes from it, and copied out bible quotes to support them. Then went out with Alana and Aaron for lunch, before getting Dungeon Siege off Keys, buying groceries and coming home for an evening of 'puter games and working through Burrow.
Thursday morning I did some more Burrow and then emailed it off to my supervisor, and then played some Dungeon Siege before my meeting, and for once he wasn't angry at me, in fact his only complaint was the number of loose ends I left in what I wrote and sent in, appearantly I have to tie them all down with more evidence, and evidence from diffrent sources - appearantly authors of critical texts aren't always that honest. Anyway, I came home to an evening of puter games. Thursday night did have the bonus of being the closest to actually sleeping I've got all week.
Yesterday. I didn't get out of my PJs until 2pm, having spent all the day uptil then playing Dungeon Siege, the games is rather addictive. And it was then I decided I needed people, so I come online and my list was empty. So I rang around my friends who live near by, and no-one was home. So I randomly went to visit Alana, to be informed by her mother she was out with Aaron, so I got to come back home a no-friends-loser and playing some more Dungeon Siege. In the evening, again feeling people starved I went online again, and still, the empty list, so I rang Midget and chatted to her for a while, it was really nice, even if she was using me to vent, but then it's about all I'm good for.
I went to bed and spent ages awake, then i did the weird doozy sleep where you are never asleep very long before you psuedo-wake-up, which leads to really freaky dreams, as you have just enough conscious imaginative control to make them go even crazier than usual, and you're with it enough that you remember them a lot better too. And my dream made so little sense but had a disturbingly intelligible premise. It involved shapechanging dinosaur-like things that assumed the shape and outward phenotype attributes of things they had genetically sampled (eaten), though they were usually strictly vegetarian - so it wasn't a problem. And the plot was vaguely sensible, if entirely supernatural too, and entirely wrong for the setting.
Anyway, I should get up, and Si has just come online, so for the first time since Tuesday I'm actually getting to chance to talk to him. I really should play less Dungeon Siege.........
Today's quote is from "Sunny Came Home" by Shawn Colvin & John Leventhal..
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