27 June 1999

Geocities and Yahoo! have completed their merger, and I really don't like it. I think this is the begining of the end of this web page. I think I'll move my diary to my ihug page soon. But I will put full linkage to it here. Anyway, I'm grumpy so I'll stop writing here now.

24 June 1999

I AINT DEAD. No getting your hopes up, I just haven't been online, between Gang Show dress rehersals and the fact I just got ALPHA CENTAURI, I have been rather busy. Anyway, I'm going back to my game.

20 June 1999

I had fun last night, dancing with friends until they all drifted off. Then chatting with Stew who I hardly ever talk to nowdays. Before walking home. At about two oclock this morning it was really frost so i bought an ice cream from the willowbank dairy. A nostalgia moment for me, since the last really frost night wehen i was walking home from town it was with Per after seeing "Batman and Robin" at Hoyts Six and we bought ice creams because he had some deluded idea about it making us feel warmer.
My ride just arrived for dress rehersals.
The theatre was just the same as last time I was there. All the novelty has worn off completely. Though on the good side I have had one of my solos given to someone else so I won't have to sing it. YAY, less for me to have to embarrase myself with. And I'm in a rather foul temper after rehersing, or maybe just coz I had to have tea with my mother and her idiot b/f.
So I'll go be nasty to the people on IRC instead of taking it out on you, my readers.

19 June 1999

Yesterday started interestingly, I got a complaint of a missed house on my paper run, from an address that doesn't exist. Spooky hah. Then i had my ENGL121 exam, which should be much more fun when I do it again next year. I got home last night to find my computer screen making EVERYTHING blue, Mum had put a Voodoo 2 card in and got something slightly wrong, it was very funny. But now it is fixed, so instead of studying for chem, which I completely fail to understand the whole second half of the course, I'm off to play BugsLife. 3dfx is So much fun.
Three guesses who is changing majors next semester. I'd be lucky to have gotten a D in my Chem exam today. But at least I have no more Uni for three weeks. A small saving grace.
I think I will spend tonight drowning my sorrows in red food colouring and feigning a sanguine complexion.
And I have now been single for six months (being that i got dumped on saturday the 19th of december). Actually the ex and i have been talking lots lately, and having childish agruments about nothing in particular. So maybe I'll try and score me a stranger tonite. Or not. I'm doing the whole big desperate need for romance thing at the moment. Okay, I've always been doing it, but I'm no longer willing to do anything for affection. I want to find my one true love that will last forever, instead of just someone who will tolerate me for a while. And I've been raised on Disney, so I know love is real and it conquers all. Especially evil witches.
Grrrr, none of my friends I want to make plans with are online. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. So I have no idea what I'll do tonight. :o( <---me being sad.
Later.

17 June 1999

In twenty-two hours i have an exam I am exceptionally ill prepared for, and twenty-four hours after that I have one I am even less prepared for. Three guesses whose life bites the most right now.
And Rise Of Rome is SO addictive. Anywho, must scarper.

16 June 1999

Still done no study, which is really dumb. It means thanks to my slack attitude I am now going to fail two papers, score for me. But I have been playing Rise of Rome (the Age Of Empires extension) and making MP3 files out of my CDs. Now I have tomorrow to do ALL my ENGL readings and workout how to do Physical Chemistry.
And I have my ex moping at me about the first year chem exam that is on tomorrow. If I passed it last year, and now the course has been made easier, anyone can do it now.
Anyway, i must start pretending to study.

14 June 1999

I did nothing productive all day. I worked on my Homestead page. I watched lots of videos. I played lots of Age of Empires. And I did nothing that even vaguely resembled study. I am such a creature of decadence. Sometimes I really wonder how I get through my life of sloth and glutteny without HUGE pangs of guilt, or how i haven't been struck down. Really, the fact I haven't been struck down proves we have a loving and forgiving deity.
I hurt today though, so it is almost an excuse. My muscles are getting back at me for how I treated them at camp. I ache, lots. I even have a muscle cramp in my arm that I would have been hasseled about LOTS if I was still at high school.
It is SO cold in Dunedin now. Okay, it is still only autumn cold, but I wouldn't be suprised if we get some frosts soon. Though it won't be tonight as it is raining too much and doesn't look like clearing. Hopefully we'll get snow this year, since last year we were robbed. I love snow, I just loathe Jack and his creations of ice.
Whitney Houston is so NOT a diva. I'm watching the diva special on TV, and I think the only one so far who has deserved the title was Elton John. I really think that some of this performers are only deluding themselves when they call themselves divas. Being an american popular singer does NOT make you a diva. This whole show is just wrong.

13 June 1999

Camp was okay I guess. I'm just really tired now. And I think there will be lots of interesting rumours about me and two of the Amys in the show. It should be interesting to hear them anyway.
My exam on Saturday wasn't too bad either. Anyways, I need sleep.

11 June 1999

YAY, I think I passed chem202. So I am happy. And I only need to get 4 of the 40 points in my theatre studies exam to pass. YAY for internal assesment. Anyway i must go and pack for Gang-Show camp, since I have to send my luggage out on the bus tonite, even though I'm not going till tomorrow.
So I shall be back sunday night, though prolly shan't write till monday.
okay i'm filling in time and avoiding study. I just noticed that i have a scar on my cheek, it isn't very big but it is shaped like a star. So I am wondering who punched me while wearing a ring, and wondering how I didn't notice.
I also just scored the "Thank ABBA for the music" single. So I am happy. Now I just have to get hold of Oli, as I still haven't organised for my sunday paper run. GRRRRRRRRRRRR. He isn't home. Anyway, I have things to be doing.

10 June 1999

I LOATHE ORGANIC SYNTHESIS. I'm downloading chime at the moment so I can use the molecules on the chemistry web site, but it is SO slow. Anyway today has consisted of reading chemistry notes, walking into uni for a Krshna Conciousness lunch and dancing to burn off chemistry-notes-induced-homocidal-urges.
I am so glad that after the 19th I won't have to think about chemistry for THREE WHOLE WEEKS.
The little pleasures for a little mind and all.
I am so not liking exams. Exams are so not fun. May the skies fill with flies and their foul pestilence cleanse the world of exams, and all those who remember them. That there may never be another exam inflicted on this realm. And that man may finally live free from their dark dominion.
Or something like that.
Anyway I should really get back to the organic study, as chime has almost downloaded and if I don't, to my detriment, I shall fail and end up a mad old trolley lady pushing all my belongings around and screaming about the end of the world being nigh.
Or worse.

9 June 1999

Well after spending all day yesterday in bed watching videos because it was cold I started to study today. I went to the university library AV centre and watched two of the videos I had to watch, though I have another two to watch, but they can wait till friday afternoon. Coz my Organic Synthesis exam is on friday morning, which only leaves tonite and tomorrow to study. And I don't understand any of it. And now mother is being a cow at me because I forgot to put the roast on. It's not like i have more important things on my mind or anything. And I did do all her fire-trucking laundry. May she die a slow and painful death. Anyway I'm off to see how much I can bleed from self-inflicted wounds before I pass out. Later.

7 June 1999 - Queen's Birthday

I just got home from Hugh's birthday party, and now I have to do my paper run and then go to bed and get some sleep before gang show rehersals. Wow, my connection is good. Obviously very few people are online at 5:30 in the morning. bye.
I got less than three hours sleep. And then I had Gang show rehersals. But i did discover that I know two of my three solos. Which is a great relief. Now i shall have an early night since my exams are three days away, and I am yet to do ANY study. Buh-Bye.

6 June 1999

Well the flatwarming was interesting. My friend Amy whose flat it is got all upset when some hussie seduced her little brother. But Amy had drunk WAY too much and was a tad over sensitive.
I had a nice lie in and then did my paper run and watched Video Hits while looking at the Dunedin city website and reading about the railway station. Then I went and got a video out of the video cabnet (?spelling?) and when I went to put it on I realised that the same movie was just starting on TV. Freaky. So now I am watching "The Gnome Mobile" as a way of avoiding study. After that i think i shall go and do some quick shopping and maybe see Chinese Splendour, since this is it's last weekend.

5 June 1999

It is so winter here now. My fingers are blue and my breath is fogging and it's 3 oclock in the afternoon. Houses shouldn't get this cold. Especially on sunny days.
I'm also getting winter blues. Its weird how depressed i have been getting later. I'm finally actually sure I'm over my ex (which took way to long), I have nothing too horrid happening in my life and I am still being depressed about nothing. I think my clinical depression is playing up again. Darn neurological chemical imbalances.
I haven't even left the house yet today. except for my paper run. And I am SO COLD.
I have spent all day watching videos. first last nights TV which I video since I am out on the town on fridays. Then "Meet the Feebles", "Braindead", "Labyrinth" and now "An American Tail". I am having such a productive study day. Especially as I am going to a flatwarming tonite.
Well I'm off to play Civilization II or SimCity 3000.

4 June 1999

I have no more classes this semester. YAY.
I finished my last one last evening. And then I came how and played puter. Now I have a week before my first exam. So soon I shall start to study.
I'm happy anyway especially since one of my friends, Fi, sent me the nicest email ever. See:

I'm on a grand quest, the greatest of them all!  To tell all the people
who are special to me just how special they are. And as an official
Special Person, I'd like to tell you how special you are.

Dispite what you always say in questionnaire, your a great friend!!!
Your funny, light-hearted, and always make the darkest days bright and 
cheerful!  Your child-like enthusiasm is always inspirational.  Your
always great to talk to and your honesty is wonderful.  You make it
impossible to be sad around you and always make me happy.  And best of
all, your give the best hugs!

Your a really great person. :-)

BIG WARM FUZZIES!!

love Fiona.

So I am happy. I just went to town, because it is friday and I am never home on friday night. And NONE of my friends were there. Though in my wandering I met up with a couple of my friends, but they were off to things, one to a party and one to a movie. So I got depressed, not that I'm prone to mood swings or anything. So then I needed to cheer myself up and was going to buy chocolate when I noticed Morning Glory was open so I bought a couple of Sailor Moon notebooks. Much better on my waist line. Unfortunately I have chocolate here and am now eating it. darn my need for the emotional support of chocolate. I so need a person to get that support from instead, before I get lost under all my flab. Anyways, I think I shall scarper off to bed.

2 June 1999

I spent last night backing up my web page, so it is all safely stored on CD. Then just now I noticed that there is a mistake in the web map thing I put at the bottom on every page. Now I feel stupid. But I guess that is life. I'm off to fix little bits of web code.
Well i am slowly getting it all fixed. Typing the word 'mail' in at the end of eudoramail :o(. But my back up CD worked. Well I'm off to do more typo fixing, I'm most of the way through.

1 June 1999

Rabbits.
Today has been pretty uneventful. Between chemistries I went shopping with Peter, and myself a shirt. And that about covers my day. Dull huh?
I have been on the computer for six hours solid. Mother and the 'boarder' are having an argument in here at the moment. he is so intolerably stupid, and she isn't much better for putting up with him. Honestly, she could atleast get a shag that can read. Or speak in coherant sentences.
Well I have been working on the page, making a tribute to Dusty Springfield that I should get finished and link to tomorrow. And web surfing, mindless web surfing. it is always mind rotting.
They are shouting at each other now, because he is to dense to understand basic instructions.
I think i shall run away now. Later.