HDL up and LDL down, I guess that means I am making good choices.....

Life is lifing.
I am barely.
The guy I am sort of maybe dating has been hanging around a bit.  The company is sort of nice, but the differences in our approach to the world are very obvious and may be become problematic if any attempt to do more than just hang out comes up.

Contact dermatitis situation healed poorly, so I have a doctors appoint booked for this week (and they used it as an excuse to get me to update my blood tests first - the couple of results they have listed in my online records so far are improved on recent rounds).

Which also means the sort of dating situation has been entirely PG.  Because no-one is touching cracked badly healing skin.

And I still have absolutely no idea what I possibly could have come into contact with that could have caused the reaction.

On the more entertaining side, I have not just watched the episodes of The Mighty Nein but also a lot of the reaction content to it in the vague hope that helps move the algorithm toward encouraging the show.

And I read some Rachel Reid novels in preparation for Heated Rivalry dropping, and watched the first couple of episodes.  I have views that are complicated.  The portrayals are problematic.  The show especially makes it feel like male gayness being exploited for a female take on what is still very much a 'male gaze'.  Whereas the book series repeated pattern of having a significant size difference, and the taller/larger man being somewhat abusive in his behaviour leans heavily into toxic heteronormative behaviours poorly masked with the use of a woman-stand-in character.

Yes, I am overthinking bad light entertainment smut.  Maybe because I don't really enjoy the smut factor of it all. 

 

 

And my stats on here are mental at the moment.  So many hits from Singapore and Hong Kong that I am pretty sure must be bots.  And what looks to have been one very bored person in Mexico nosing through a lot of entries. 

Not sure why the very boring ramblings of a very boring person would be of interest to strangers anywhere, even bots.  My English is not eloquent enough to be helping train anything. 

Convincing myself that contact dermatitis is actually fournier's gangrene, because....

So I have not been good at writing, because I am losing at mood management and sad Matthew is bad at doing thing.  Low level depression leads to a lot of just not getting stuff done.

I was supposed to be about to start another round of housesitting, but over Labour Day weekend Catsie passed - so there is no longer a cat I need to housesit to look after.  It was pretty sad being the closest to a pet I had had in my adult life, having spend quite a considerable amount of time living over in Wingatui looking after it in recent years.

The almost dating a Middle Eastern closet-case situation I had been somewhat dodging because the guy seemed both overly dramatic and a bit flaky resolved itself when he very much confirmed all my negative suspicions about him and then made it pretty clear then even the friendship we had build was only of interest to him if I was eventually going to be sexual available to him.  So it turned out I had been giving him a bit too much benefit of the doubt while feeling bad that I was judging him too harshly.

And it seems more recently I have accidentally fallen into dating someone else, who I am still a bit uncertain about but does seem genuinely nice and well meaning, which is a bit of a change of pace for me. So we will see if that goes anywhere, and if so where.

Otherwise my life has been pretty quite.  Not achieving a lot.  Too eh to do anything much, so nothing noteworthy to note on.

I guess there is the whole my sister running for city council, and then getting nowhere near getting in thing.  But that wasn't me doing anything just stuff happening near me. 

And I spent the weekend convincing myself I was seriously ill with something that was going to end is serious permanent injury.  By Monday morning when I could easily ring my doctor's office it was pretty obvious it was just been some nasty contact dermatitis  - though I am uncertain what could have triggered it.  As someone allergic to basically everything I am pretty familiar with contact dermatitis.  But sometimes anxiety disorders and the priming that can comes from medsafe warnings can overcome logic and familiarity.

 

Also, do not google the term in the title of this entry unless you have safe search on, the picture google brings up is nightmare body-horror material.