I am now a bum, awaiting my results at the end of the month.
There's a chair in my head on which I used to sit Took a pencil and I wrote the following on it Now there's a key where my wonderful mouth used to be Dig it up, throw it at me Dig it up, throw it at me Where can I run to, where can I hide Who will I turn to now I'm in a virgin state of mind Got a knife to disengage the voids that I can't bear To cut out words I've got written on my chair
9th November 2002 - Theodore, Mart.
I haven't written in a while. Going on two weeks. And I'm not gonna write much now, as I am presently almost an hour late for a party, though I'm not hugely concerned.
Last week, I stuffed around mostly. The only THING I did was to apply for a postgraduate award, if I get it I'll be doing a masters next year.
This week, not counting my daily trip to the stupermarket, I only left the house three times. Once for a pot luck at Midget's, once to get drilled at the dentist and a late night jog last night that ended up with me, dressed for jogging, at a party.
And I baked buscuits a few times this week too.
Ummm, I should probably head off to this party.
Today's quote is from "Virgin State of Mind" by K's Choice. Official Site.
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15th November 2002 - Machutus, Bp. and Conf. Middle lessons of S. Martin.
Well, the party was kinda fun, the second I'd been to that day. First a Szeto bash, and then the Pagans' one.
The next day I had to babysit for a while, and then went to my Grandparents' for tea. Which was good, except that I had a minor disagreement with their stairs on the way out, and ended up bleeding and with a nastily sprained ankle. But I learned that staircase real good, it won't risk getting bled all over like that again.
So Monday was mostly spent in bed, with my pillows under my foot.
Tuesday followed on much the same, though I managed to limp to the Gardens supermarket and back, as I was out of food.
Wednesday I wandered down to varsity and found that I had indeed missed the Hallensteins sale - so I will have to spent the gift vouchers that are soon to run out on full price clothes, dash it all.
Yesterday I had a doctor's visit and then was dragged off to a picnic with Midget.
Today I didn't get up till noon, I'm rereading LoTR in entirity before the next movie comes out, so it's all fresh in my head. Then I went into town, was feed to much lunch by Alana, picked up my prescription - I'm now I'm bigger doses of my drugs, I'm not amused. I hate taking pills. Anyway, it was like 6:30 before I got home, and I have no idea who ate all my day.
Where do YOU belong?
16th November 2002 - Deposition of S. Edmund, Archbp.
I spent last night downloading Buffy 7.07 Conversations with Dead People, and watched it at about six this morning. It's like a big teaser episode for what is coming in the rest of the season. And Dawn is disturbingly cool in it.
Then after much stuffing around, and playing Dungeon Siege over the network with my flatmate, I headed into Harvey Norman and got the second half of Season Three Buffy. Yay. Now I have all the first three seasons. And Mother has said she'll get me part of season four for Christmas.
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18th November 2002 - Oct. of S. Martin.
I really should get around to whacking some quotes in some day, I'm getting way behind. It would help if people gave some suggestions. Otherwise it might just end up being LOTS of Buffy quotes.
Well, the walking to Harvey Norman to get the Buffy DVDs wasn't the smartest move, as I didn't wear my ankle bandage, and set my recovery back a little, it's hurting to walk again.
Sunday I stayed in, read some LoTR, played some Dungeon Siege, and watched Buffy muchly. I also didn't go online or leave the house all day. Go complete lack of social contact.
Not that I went anywhere except the supermarket today, though I am online, and chatting to my ex, as is always a healthy thing to do.
My ankle is SO sore, it should be better by now, darn it. Darn it to heck.
Anyway, I think I shall off and get some sleep.
Today's quote is from "" by .
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21st November 2002.
Today I finally turned over my calenders, only twenty days late. And got Nina a birthday present - a month and three days after her birthday, and it could be a while before it gets to her.
Anyway, Tuesday... I went to Catriona's and watched the extended version of Fellowship of the Ring. It's damn good.
Yesterday I mostly stuffed around, and in the evening went to pint night at re-feul. It was fun, but at about 1:30 I got grumpy as the people I were with were debating the merits of some guy that my ex used to have a thing for - and I went home in a bit of a huff.
Today sucked, and it's late, so I think I'll talk about it tomorrow.
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22nd November 2002 - Cecilia, V. and Mart.
Okay, yesterday. I got up rather late. I am always really sleepy recently, I think it could be an effect on my higher dose of meds. Anyway, I looked up my marks on PIMS, and everything except my dissertation was there, and it was all pretty bad. I then went in to varsity and got my disseertation mark, whihc also turned out to be pretty bad. For some reason my diss being bad got me more than a little depressed, in fact I was considering killing myself - until I realised just how tragic that would be.
Anyway, to cut a long story short, I ate far too much comfort food and sulked, and sulked even more when people congratulated my second class hons, not realising that second class was a bad thing. Eventually Simon managed to talk some sense into me, and I was mostly ok about the fact I'm a retard with no friends by the time I wrote the above - while on the phone to Midget.
Today I stuffed around feeling ill until Oli, Bridget and Aaron came around to watch some season seven Buffy. It was pretty cool. Then I headed in to met Midget at some crappy bar, but she wasn't there, so I wandered home again - by this stage my ankle was feeling rather sore. Then just now Midget rang - I think she is pissed at me about the fact she wasn't there when I was waiting for her.
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25th November 2002 - Katherine, V. and Mart.
Saturday, I had to get up early and head to a birthday party for one of my cousins. Which also involved me stopping at the supermarket to buy a gift of Lego. It wasn't actually his birthday, but they were celebrating it now as it was more convenient than any time near the actual day. It wasn't to horrible, except fot the small child factor - and the early on a Saturday morning thing. And my Aunt being falsely nice about my second class hons - I think she was looking for a chance to remind me of her PhD.
After the 'party', I headed into town to buy The Princess Bride on DVD, there having been six copies of it between the two Whitcoullses on Friday, but by lunchtime Saturday they had all been bought and I missed out. Bugger it.
In the evening I went to a Belly Dancing concert at the Cedars Club, which cost far more than I would want to pay, and it's not something I would ever pay for again, no matter how many people I know are in it. But as it was, it was an education. And Elizabeth was really good. Though a lot of it was just middle aged white women trying to feel exotic. Oh, and a whole load of celebrating the female form - ie. fat girls showing their stomachs. Some of the dancers were okay, but some weren't so. Let's just say, I don't see myself going to one of those again. And then, after deciding not to visit Simon, I came home and blobbed for the night - getting told off over the net for the above entry.
It's weird. I quite like it when people just randomly visit me, but I feel really awkward about randomly visiting other people. I'm always sure that I wouldn't be welcome. I think maybe it has something to do with my whole issue about people. Anyway, I don't really need to go further into my craziness right now, so I shan't.
Yesterday I lazed around till about 1pm, when Tim messaged me and told me to meet him, Oli, Aaron and Lyall at the Woodhaugh Gardens. So I headed on down for an afternoon of playing frisbee and throwing around a rugby ball. Then after takeaways, Oli, Aaron and I came and watched some Buffy and chatted for ages.
I got up this morning to find I was rather sunburnt. And have since spent the day stuffing around and avoiding sunlight, which I'm sunburnt enough to find uncomfortable.
And I just found out that my bunny is dying, my mother thinks she (the bunny) has had a stroke. It's not a good year for my pets. Darn it. Though I have had my bunny since 1995, and I've never had a bunny live even remotely this long before, in the past they were always eaten by neighbourhood dogs.
I should go, as I don't really have anything intelligent to say now. Not that I ever do.
I've had a weird feeling all day, but it's been getting much worse all evening. And I can't work out what it is. I think maybe it's worry of the "I'm forgotten something" variety - but I can't work out what it's about at all, and it is serious annoying me. Maybe I'm just getting even crazier.
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28th November 2002.
On Tuesday I had lunch with Alana, Lyall, Aaron and Josh (Aaron's flatmate) at Filadelphio's. Then Alana came and watched as I buried my rabbit - not quite as deep as I had planned to; she had died all stretched out abd turned out to be a lot bigger than I'd thought until I put her in the hole. So well, her feet are a bit closer to the surface than they perhaps should be.
Yesterday, I was woken early by my filling breaking - I am having the worst luck with this damn tooth. So I got up and after reading some LoTR, headed in ans joined the very long queue at dent school - where I read for several hours before being seen to. The dentist looked in, poked about and said "You've lost quite a chunk, but there is still enough there, so bye." So I left, much less than amused and went past varsity, where I bumped into Gnatacia and a couple of her friends, so I had a pink bun and chatted to them while they had lunch. I then went and stared at the boards at SJS, I need a job, but there was nothing there for me. So I started home, and bumped into Si and walked him the 30 metres to the chem building and then resumed my passage home. Once home I saw the note stuck to the edge of my computer screen reminding me I was meeting someone for mid-afternoon drinks. So I headed out again and met up with Michiel. We went to the place in the botanical gardens, and I spent far too much on a slice of cake and a cup of hot chocolate. Then it was home again to an afternoon of stuffing around, and throwing out a pile of condoms - their having expired during my many years of failing to score. It's amazing the things you do just to fill in time. Anyway, come late evening Midget turns up when I was about to go to pint night, so instead I went to the perc with her and chatted for ages about various nothing in particulars.
Today, I stuffed around reading LoTR mostly. I'm now into the third book (ie. the start of the Two Towers). For some reason rereading is taking me AGES, though it's being a lot of fun. After going to the supermarket for veges and money for the power bill, and stuffing around playing games for a while, I headed in to town and spent ages shopping before ending up buying a kind of crappy present for Catriona - I suck at shopping. Then I headed past varsity on the way home and had a long chat about varsity type stuff with Ian (my supervisor). He pointed out how good upper second class is. And how my dissertation was very clear and accurate, but only got a B+ as it didn't show any imprint of my imagination. Which I think makes it better. Though from the way he said it, it seems my actual mark within the B+ range was much debated, and the external marker lead to it only just being a B+.
Anyway, I have rambled long enough. I'm in a weird mood so I should go before I start sending messages inviting my ex over for some nookie. Someday I should really stop wanting my ex, it's not particularly healthy, nor hugely productive. And on that note of craziness, I shall actually leave.
