Winter is here, and my thesis is shite.
2nd June 2005 - SS. Marcellinus and Peter, Martt.
Stressing out about the seminar I have to give on tuesday, my getting it ready is far behind schedule - I had hoped to have a preliminary draft done tomorrow so I could get it looked over while there is still time to make changes, as then it is just long weekend and presentation day.
Not a happy camper.
Fortunately happiness has snuck in from somewhere else, chanced upon Stu and Si having coffee (well, hot chocolates) in the Link and joined in. Socialness for me. And time around Simon is always good to escape from life's nastier stresses.
Winter has kicked in something nasty. Old age seems to have made me soft, which makes it worse.
The weekend is going to be all work related - seems a wrong way to treat a holiday weekend. Also, Shiny has decided to visit even after I nixed the idea repeatedly. It's really not a good weekend for it and I suspect my extreme crankiness will lead to me saying some very mean things.
6th June 2005.
Tomorrow I'm giving my seminar, it is SO not ready. It shall all end in tears. Or in me being beaten up by feminist/queer theorist for misinterperating the theory so bad as to be offensive. It's not ready either, this afternoon will be very work related. But first I have to be home so my brother can come have a look at EVE Online. But then work will follow.
Shiny stayed for the weekend, it was much less awkward than I was expecting - but less less than ideal. Then I complained about the situation to my ex who cursed me to have it last five years. It was mean - but possibly justified. It's always annoying when our friendship gets iffy. I guess it's because I'm a shit friend. Actually, a shit person. I guess I should just terminate contact with other people all together. Best for everyone.
Okay, I've entered the crazy rambling place.
Is now evening. Seminar is written as much as it is going to be. Not sure it's any good, but it's done.
Still thinking I should stop talking to everyone ever. My self-involved crappy person-ness is pissing me off.
8th June 2005 - SS. Medardus and Gildardus, Conff.
Wahoo, Tonari no Totoro is today's IMDB movie of the day. I concur.
My seminar yesterday didn't go fantastically. It was terrible but I mumbled and lost my place and screwed up theory words and quotes. I hate public speaking. Afterward my father shouted me a movie and choose La mala educación. I wasn't expecting anything, so was a little surprised by the content. Good film though, powerful storytelling once you get past the softcore gay porn aspect of it.
Today I'm having a lazy morning. At some stage will have to head to varsity and work on the old thesis - just can't be arsed starting yet.
20th June 2005 - Trans. of S. Edward, K. and Mart. Unless it shall have been kept in Lent.
Monday last week I bussed up to Christchurch. Against all common sense I stayed with Shiny. Staying with an ex is not always ideal. It was an okay week all up. My idol audition was a joke. A fun waste of a few hours though, so it was worth it. The week featured far too much pub food - most of it pretty good, except for the food at The Holy Grail, which was near toxic.
Argh, have heardly explained a thing, and really should, but tired and am starting head shrinking tomorrow (after I promised Si in January).
22nd June 2005 - Alban, Protomartyr.
Anyway, details of Christchurch. My idol audition didn't even get so far as the actual judges, the prelim judges said I wasn't bad but that I wasn't what they were looking for. I was a bit "too theatrical". This was followed by one of the prelim judges trying to encourage me toward participating in stage musicals. Hrumph.
Spent a day hanging out with one of my net friends, it was a great afternoon and lead to my discovering the wonders of the Comedy Central animated reality show Drawn Together. Unfortunately, said net friend has since turned out to have scabies, so I'm going to have to get me some scabies cream. Hrumph again.
The trip also featured the playing of Settlers - which I may have to buy a copy of after I've bought some friends to play it with - and some seeing of sites. Only other problem was Shiny's continued attempts to convince me into getting back together, while at the same time scoffing at my every other opinion. This could be the triple Hrumph.
Sunday, I spent back home at last and feeling amazingly tired.
Monday, I went to the office and achieved much less than desired.
Tuesday, re:monday but with an preliminary evaluation for getting my head seen to and lunch of midget birthdayness.
Wednesday, would be today. Forgot to take my glasses to the office, made things much less fun and rather unproductive. Then this evening found out about the possible scabies thing, and have been psychosomatic itchy ever since.
24th June 2005 - Nat. of S. John Baptist.
I hate pharmacy and all its works.
Yesterday after the pharmacy had stamped and stickered and skewered my prescription they admitted they couldn't fill it and asked me to come back today. So I turn up there today and it's not there. So the pharmacist informs there there is a national shortage and they can't possibly have any in before Monday. I am not happy.
I really have to start being one of those people that makes a pharmacy confirm they have the stuff before letting them put their grubby like profiteering-off-disease hands on my prescriptions.
I am annoyed.
30th June 2005 - Com. of S. Paul.
Insecticided nicely now - still with some paranoid itching though.
Midget declared my scabies to be teh best birthday present she had ever had, and suggested that she should throw me an STD party. I turned the offer down.
Otherwise what has happened in my life worth mentioning..... hmmmm...
On Tuesday I had my first proper psychotherapy session. It was uncomfortable - what with how much I hate to talk about anything remotely difficult. In the afternoon I had a supervisor meeting and was thrown by just how positive Greg seemed. I guess the fact he was only days from leaving the country had made him more willing than usual to make out that my research was exciting. It was good, if only he could be so happy about my work more often.
I've also got myself a gmail address and am shifting all my website related email to it - as eudoramail (what my webpage used to use) is mostly gone and gmail seemed a sensible replacement. I've also reinstalled frontpage at last, to tidy up thing I'm too lazy to actually remember the html code for. No big differences to the site, just a tidy up of things.
Today I'm all full of randomly timed hayfever. It is not filling me with a great joy. I'm sure there are other things I could mention, but none come to mind.
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