Stress and anxiety and insomnia

I am not doing well.

Mostly for stupid life reasons.

Like trying to sort a review through ACC and having the staff member I have been working with give me the brush off as it not being anything to do with her and ever piece of advice I could fine, including the information she sent while fobbing me off, saying I had to do it through her.  Making the whole situation more stressful and unpleasant than it needs to me.

So emailing has had to be done.  Or get locked out from ACC funding I might be eligible for forever.

Annoying emailing where I feel like the bad guy as I am emailing about a thing to a person after they have already given the brush off to my earlier email.  And, thus, making me feeling like I am being a pushy Karen. 

 

Also had to be a similar Karenesque emailer to Brotherwise Games support.  I love their games but have terrible luck with the Australasian local redistributors for their kickstarters.  With the last one I didn't get my add-ons.  With the one I should have got this year I am yet to get anything at all.  Even for this part of the world if should have arrived several months ago, but someone on the support team in on it and at least my backerkit addons have been sent from the US.  It is just the main kickstarter game itself that I still have no sign that a copy is heading my way.

I came pretty close to just quietly accepting the loss and being bitter about it but not drawing attention with the company.  Because I am Kiwi and complaining to the actual source of the complaint makes me deeply uncomfortable.  Bad mouthing them behind their back forever but never mentioning the problem to their face seems far more socially acceptable......

I just find the whole thing uncomfortable and awkward.

Not helped by being tired.

In part, because I haven't been sleeping the best.

And, in part, because I was a bit rundown for a few days after getting a COVID vaccine booster on... I think it was the 15th.  As I realised I was a bit past due for it.  While it didn't affect me much it was a good reminder that my current pain meds have me only just in the range of functional.  It only takes a very small increase in illness and I become too sick to get basics done.  It is rather embarrassing.

Not having the best of times.

Haven't been playing computer games in a while.  All month really.  Migraininess that derailed my NaNoWriMo attempt never entirely cleared.  So have been limiting my screen time.  And listening to some terrible audiobooks.  Too much Seanan McGuire for one thing.  My eyes are just too readily linked to pain for gaming or binging TV.