Old and the world is awful

I got older.  I am half way to two fat ladies.  My birthday itself was mostly quite though I did go to town for lunch with roleplaying Claire and bought myself a little $7 birthday cake so I could take pictures of it for instagram afterwards…. Because priorities….

Main other event of the week was days eaten up by family things around my sister’s graduation.  She has finished uni and is a qualified teacher now.  I would feel sorry for the children, but she is endorsed for the younger ones and they are stupid enough to like her.

Days of her has reminded me that I can only deal with her in small doses.  Christmas will be exhausting.

Otherwise I was been being disappointed by humanity.  As the situation in Israel continues to be awful and the Israeli government continues to commit war crimes while the US hand waves them away as acceptable because genocide is forgivable if it is Israel doing it.  It makes me wonder if humanity deserves to exist.  By which I mean it makes me near certain that it doesn’t.

And so much of the media is trying so hard not to offend Israel that is underreports everything, or reports everything in openly racist ways that make Jewish suffering important and the massively larger Palestinian suffering a side thought, dehumanised and clinical.  Even New Zealand’s media is doing it, which is saddening.

And lets not even get started on the shitshow that is the current New Zealand government.  Christopher Luxor will be remembered as the Prime Minister who mainstreamed white supremacy in New Zealand culture, and it is starting to look like that is a legacy he is happy with rather than one he fell into by accident.

At the rate they are going, there will be quite the spike in crime coming to.  That is what comes from intentionally pushing the working poor into poverty.  I wouldn’t even be that surprised if we end up with civil unrest - something I had always thought of as an ‘other countries’ thing, not something that would ever happen here.  But the self righteous mediocre white men telling people why they should suffer so more money can be channeled to their rich friends seems like it is something that will eventually end badly, for everyone.

And ACC continues to be awful.  I am becoming very certain the system is set up to make to give up and stop trying to use it.