A repost of a web-diary that predated the term blog - as previous hosting is disappearing it can now go here.
24 October 1998 - 29 July 1999 originally published on geocties.
August 1999 - 2012 originally published on ihug.
Disclaimer
Though a "Diary" my online diary is a work of FICTION.It may at times strongly reflect actual events of my life, often how I honestly perceived them and display my genuine reactions. But not always and everything contained within should be treated as a fiction.
This is also a personal diary, so by reading it you are violating my privacy. And as it is a personal diary you are not allowed to hold anything you read in it against me, as you shouldn't have been reading it anyway.
Also, this diary is not to be read by anyone who has gone out with me, would like to go out with me in the future, or suspects I may like to go out with them.
Wednesday, 30 December 1998
30 December 1998
[Reupload amendment - added a picture taken at the party mentioned]
Monday, 28 December 1998
28 December 1998
Then I came home and listened to Cher - Believe and Pure Disco vol. 1 & 2. It is a good sign. Getting over someone music if ever I heard it. "Coz maybe I'm to good for you."
My music goes Dusty Springfield then Back Beat then Disco and then I'm over whatever was getting me down. Well, it usually works.
That was today anyway.
I should probably catch people up on what happened over christmas, but I can't be bothered.
Sunday, 27 December 1998
27 December 1998
Tuesday, 22 December 1998
22 December 1998
Tonsilitis, and a severe bout of depression, and pimples from the mega chocolate binge I've been on. I am SO LUCKY.
Well I have to go, coz i'm meeting a friend for a movie, buh-bye
Sunday, 20 December 1998
20 December 1998
I've learned my lesson though "Don't let anyone get close enough to hurt you".
Nina rang me last night to cheer me up, which was really nice coz she's my best friends and I love her lots and it was good to have someone there to whinge at.
Well now I've lost my never-been-dumped record, have no-one to go to "A Bug's Life" with and have a four month anniversary present and no-one to give it to. And I'm sad, pathetic, bitter and twisted. Wahoo for me. The fat freak who got dumped over IRC. Lonely-spinsterhood here I come.
I've decided I have to change my IRC nick, I might go back to the old lipstick lesbian one I had "DaiDrimaa" or maybe go for something new and different. I don't know, I have to think about it some more. I'm going to change my web page a bit and get rid of all the ducks. This isn't about the being dumped thing, I was going to change the page anyway as the duck pic is UGLY. I just think I may aswell change it now. Since I have nothing better to focus my depression on.
Well I have to finish tidying the lounge before lunch, so, Buh-Bye.
PS: You can tell when I'm sad, all my soft toys move from the side of the bed upto the top. It means I can roll over, but I have to sleep crunched up. I have a few too many of the things to be depressed with :P
Saturday, 19 December 1998
19 December 1998
BUGGER. I just got dumped after three months and nineteen days. Now I get to be a sad pathetic lonely old fart.
Dag Nabbit.
I had rather wanted this one to work.
Friday, 18 December 1998
18 December 1998
Buh-bye
Thursday, 17 December 1998
17 December 1998
Any way, i have to stop digging myself into a li'l well of depression. I don't need to be any worse.
I should prolly go and let it out in bad sorrowful poetry
Wednesday, 16 December 1998
16 December 1998
I also met up with an old friend from school who has been snubbing me since sixth form. And she came upto me and said "hi". She was actually very nice, which has me paranoid. I'm worried I may have bad mouthed her and it got back to her. Though i don't remember saying anything mean about her.
Anyway, that's all for now
Tuesday, 15 December 1998
15 December 1998
I hope I'm being paranoid about the relationship part though. I'm still really hoping it'll work.
Well I've talked enough, Buh-bye
Monday, 14 December 1998
14 December 1998
On Saturday to celebrate it I had a supper with three of my best friends, and a midget. It was a fun evening and it kinda kept going till 2pm on Sunday. Then I went home and got my presents from my family.
Today I spend some gift vouchers I got. I bought new jeans with the voucher from my granparents and I got the Ally McBeal soundtrack with the ones from Simon. It took me AGES to decide between Ally McBeal or Cher - Believe.
Buh-bye
Friday, 11 December 1998
11 December 1998
I am in a really weird mood today, even for me. And my o key keeps sticking so i have to keep going back and fixing things (ggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr) well that's life I guess.
I have almost got my first proper page for my fortunecity site finished, wahoo. FrontPage just makes it nice and easy to do.
Why
Why
Why
Okay,luv ya, buh-bye
I'm back again. And supa-happy.
Nina sent me my birthday present and I couldn't wait to open it so I did. THE CASS ELLIOT COLLECTION :o) :o) :o) I am so happy.
If she wasn't already one of my best-est friends I'd make her one now. So here's me writing this in while I listen to CASS ELLIOT. Joy. :o). She also gave me a cassette of REPUBLICA. Wahoo.
Now I just get to feel guilty about how crappy the present I gave her was. Well the christmas present I have for her is better but still doesn't compete with THE CASS ELLIOT COLLECTION.
I can just hope she likes my meagre gift simply because its from me
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, I just worked out that I had a 66.875% average mark at uni this year. That's only a B-, but still, if my BIOC mark had been one higher (ie a pass) I probably would have got into pharmacy.
The universe hates me.
Thursday, 10 December 1998
10 December 1998
I also set up my IHUG homepage with my school testimonial on it.
Wednesday, 9 December 1998
9 December 1998
Buh-bye
I just got back from Uni where the woman at the careers advisory was really helpful and has helped me select papers so I can choose at the end of next year whether I want to do a BSc in three years or stay longer and do a double degree BSc:Chem/BA:English.
Monday, 7 December 1998
7 December 1998
I went to uni to get some course advice, but I just got told completely different stuff. Everyone was helpful, but the chemistry woman was a little forceful and the english woman was a flake.
Saturday, 5 December 1998
5 December 1998
Then just to make matters worse I got my exam results:
I failed BIOC so I'll never be a drug dealer :o(
So sympathy emails please.
I also hate the hair cut I got yesterday.
I'm going to go sulk, buh-bye
Friday, 4 December 1998
4 December 1998
I got a great big envelope in the mail today with DO NOT OPEN TILL YOUR BIRTHDAY on it from Tina. And my birthday is so far away, I'm not sure I'll make it. Nine whole days.
Anyway, buh-bye
[Reupload note: Links are long dead]
Thursday, 3 December 1998
3 December 1998
I started making a virtual christmas card for those of my friends with internet connections last night, and it isn't looking too shabby, just a bit sparse and plain. But I'll work on it before I send people the url.
I had to go into University today and picked up my reinrollment (?spelling?) pack, they were supposed to be sent out but the uni computer had screwed up my address. I think I'm gonna do a double degree chemistry/english since I doubt I'll get into pharmacy.
Then I went to town and bought something I wanted, got too much change, went back and gave the extra change back to the lady in the shop, got really guilty about buying myself stuff when I should be buying christmas presents and then came home.
Now I'm trying to decide if I should keep the thing for myself or give it to someone else for christmas. The midget would like it, and Nina (well, her real name is Natasha, but the story is long and ends in "Bye George") would appreciate it. But I WANT IT FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well, buh-bye for now.
Wednesday, 2 December 1998
2 December 1998
Though I got a bit of a cheer up today, a friend of mine, Rachel, stopped by with a big pottle of alcoholic ice cream. Mmmmmmmm, ice cream.
Well, I'm too grumpy to write much more, so buh-bye.
I did get real mail today though, even if it was a bulk sent photocopied Christmas letter, from Fangurl. She sent me my first christmas card of the year with it too. The funny thing is that I sent her a letter the day before, so they kinda pasted on the way.
