Disclaimer

Though a "Diary" my online diary is a work of FICTION.

It may at times strongly reflect actual events of my life, often how I honestly perceived them and display my genuine reactions. But not always and everything contained within should be treated as a fiction.

This is also a personal diary, so by reading it you are violating my privacy. And as it is a personal diary you are not allowed to hold anything you read in it against me, as you shouldn't have been reading it anyway.

Also, this diary is not to be read by anyone who has gone out with me, would like to go out with me in the future, or suspects I may like to go out with them.






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Wednesday, 30 December 1998

30 December 1998

Today i had a friend's birthday party to go to. It was a lot of fun. Small parties usually are. I also have added two new CDs to my collection in the last two days, Dusty Springfield - Blue for you, and Pretenders - The Singles. I really shouldn't be wasting money though, coz I'll be poor next year.

[Reupload amendment - added a picture taken at the party mentioned]

Monday, 28 December 1998

28 December 1998

I feel better today. I spent the day at Midget girl's house watching videos. We saw "Hercules and Xena : The animated movie" and it SUCKED. It was a crime against both series. And that is saying something. Followed by Disney's Hercules.
Then I came home and listened to Cher - Believe and Pure Disco vol. 1 & 2. It is a good sign. Getting over someone music if ever I heard it. "Coz maybe I'm to good for you."
My music goes Dusty Springfield then Back Beat then Disco and then I'm over whatever was getting me down. Well, it usually works.
That was today anyway.
I should probably catch people up on what happened over christmas, but I can't be bothered.

Sunday, 27 December 1998

27 December 1998

I'm still a little sick, but had the worst of it over christmas eve and christmas day (which I almost completely slept through). I'll write more when I'm feeling better.

Tuesday, 22 December 1998

22 December 1998

Guess what i got for christmas?
Tonsilitis, and a severe bout of depression, and pimples from the mega chocolate binge I've been on. I am SO LUCKY.
Well I have to go, coz i'm meeting a friend for a movie, buh-bye

Sunday, 20 December 1998

20 December 1998

I spent last night sulking and listening to Dusty Springfield, Cass Elliot and the Ally McBeal soundtrack on random play. I even caught myself crying.
I've learned my lesson though "Don't let anyone get close enough to hurt you".
Nina rang me last night to cheer me up, which was really nice coz she's my best friends and I love her lots and it was good to have someone there to whinge at.
Well now I've lost my never-been-dumped record, have no-one to go to "A Bug's Life" with and have a four month anniversary present and no-one to give it to. And I'm sad, pathetic, bitter and twisted. Wahoo for me. The fat freak who got dumped over IRC. Lonely-spinsterhood here I come.
I've decided I have to change my IRC nick, I might go back to the old lipstick lesbian one I had "DaiDrimaa" or maybe go for something new and different. I don't know, I have to think about it some more. I'm going to change my web page a bit and get rid of all the ducks. This isn't about the being dumped thing, I was going to change the page anyway as the duck pic is UGLY. I just think I may aswell change it now. Since I have nothing better to focus my depression on.
Well I have to finish tidying the lounge before lunch, so, Buh-Bye.
PS: You can tell when I'm sad, all my soft toys move from the side of the bed upto the top. It means I can roll over, but I have to sleep crunched up. I have a few too many of the things to be depressed with :P

Saturday, 19 December 1998

19 December 1998

I went to some plays at the Globe theater today. They were loads of fun. The acting wasn't to shoddy even.
BUGGER. I just got dumped after three months and nineteen days. Now I get to be a sad pathetic lonely old fart.
Dag Nabbit.
I had rather wanted this one to work.

Friday, 18 December 1998

18 December 1998

I had brunch with my Aunt Barbara, Father and Alex (Father's partner). Then I went shopping with Father's money for my christmas present, I choose Cher-Believe. I like her new song, so it seemed worth it.
Buh-bye

Thursday, 17 December 1998

17 December 1998

I had a quiet day today, recovering from the party I went to last night. I just realised how much weight I've put on this year. I am so FAT. I'm going to end up a fat bitter twisted lonely old spinster (yes I know that it's bachelor for guys but spinster sounds more pathetic). I'm just a hideous chocolate junky. Three guesses who is in a depressed mood?
Any way, i have to stop digging myself into a li'l well of depression. I don't need to be any worse.
I should prolly go and let it out in bad sorrowful poetry

Wednesday, 16 December 1998

16 December 1998

I just got back from shopping for christmas presents. I now have gifts organised for all my friends from Hayward hall. Now I just have to worry about my grandparents, the border and my local friends.
I also met up with an old friend from school who has been snubbing me since sixth form. And she came upto me and said "hi". She was actually very nice, which has me paranoid. I'm worried I may have bad mouthed her and it got back to her. Though i don't remember saying anything mean about her.
Anyway, that's all for now

Tuesday, 15 December 1998

15 December 1998

I'm a tad depreesed today. I was stuck home ALL day babysitting and am really sick of my lil brother. I'm worried I've spent the last 3 months and 15 days going out with some one who does really like me. And I have a midget trying to twist all her problems into being my fault.
I hope I'm being paranoid about the relationship part though. I'm still really hoping it'll work.
Well I've talked enough, Buh-bye

Monday, 14 December 1998

14 December 1998

Yesterday I turned 19. So now I'm an old crusty.
On Saturday to celebrate it I had a supper with three of my best friends, and a midget. It was a fun evening and it kinda kept going till 2pm on Sunday. Then I went home and got my presents from my family.
Today I spend some gift vouchers I got. I bought new jeans with the voucher from my granparents and I got the Ally McBeal soundtrack with the ones from Simon. It took me AGES to decide between Ally McBeal or Cher - Believe.
Buh-bye

Friday, 11 December 1998

11 December 1998

I'm stuck home babysitting my sick brother while I should be getting things ready for my party. Which means tomorrow is going to be a tad rushed for me. Which is annoying coz i wanted to spend some quiet time with my latest shag (darn, I just can't sound vulgar and white trash no matter how hard I try). I guess I just wasn't meant to be a bogan or miscellaneous other white trash personage.
I am in a really weird mood today, even for me. And my o key keeps sticking so i have to keep going back and fixing things (ggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr) well that's life I guess.
I have almost got my first proper page for my fortunecity site finished, wahoo. FrontPage just makes it nice and easy to do.
Why
Why
Why
Okay,luv ya, buh-bye
I'm back again. And supa-happy.
Nina sent me my birthday present and I couldn't wait to open it so I did. THE CASS ELLIOT COLLECTION :o) :o) :o) I am so happy.
If she wasn't already one of my best-est friends I'd make her one now. So here's me writing this in while I listen to CASS ELLIOT. Joy. :o). She also gave me a cassette of REPUBLICA. Wahoo.
Now I just get to feel guilty about how crappy the present I gave her was. Well the christmas present I have for her is better but still doesn't compete with THE CASS ELLIOT COLLECTION.
I can just hope she likes my meagre gift simply because its from me
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, I just worked out that I had a 66.875% average mark at uni this year. That's only a B-, but still, if my BIOC mark had been one higher (ie a pass) I probably would have got into pharmacy.
The universe hates me.

Thursday, 10 December 1998

10 December 1998

I got my first two birthday presents today, I got chocolates from Carl and a soft toy frog from my Aunt (actually first cousin once removed) Jenny. Soft toys are the greatest. I guess I really got Tina's present first, but I'm not allowed to open it till sunday :^(.
I also set up my IHUG homepage with my school testimonial on it.

Wednesday, 9 December 1998

9 December 1998

I have an allergy and I'm all blocked up :^(. So when I talk it sounds rather pitiful. I am also fat and pimply. I bought a 1 kilo bag of lollies, last sunday, for my birthday party. And I got depressed and have eaten them already so I'll have to buy more just before my party on saturday. Well I have to go to uni and have people try to confuse me with weird course plans again
Buh-bye
I just got back from Uni where the woman at the careers advisory was really helpful and has helped me select papers so I can choose at the end of next year whether I want to do a BSc in three years or stay longer and do a double degree BSc:Chem/BA:English.

Monday, 7 December 1998

7 December 1998

Yesterday I sneezed and my lip split, blood running down my chin so I bought a chap-stick. Now I smell like strawberry shortcake. I'm an '80s lil girls doll :(.
I went to uni to get some course advice, but I just got told completely different stuff. Everyone was helpful, but the chemistry woman was a little forceful and the english woman was a flake.

Saturday, 5 December 1998

5 December 1998

I've had a bad morning. I watched last night's Xena, and they killed Gabby :~(. And then they made a crude joke about it in the credits.
Then just to make matters worse I got my exam results:

I failed BIOC so I'll never be a drug dealer :o(
So sympathy emails please.
I also hate the hair cut I got yesterday.
I'm going to go sulk, buh-bye

Friday, 4 December 1998

4 December 1998

I moved my fortunecity site this morning to here and scored myself some space with talkcity here. I'll just warn you I typed those links in so they might not work. but I'll test them soon so you prolly don't need to worry.
I got a great big envelope in the mail today with DO NOT OPEN TILL YOUR BIRTHDAY on it from Tina. And my birthday is so far away, I'm not sure I'll make it. Nine whole days.
Anyway, buh-bye

[Reupload note: Links are long dead]

Thursday, 3 December 1998

3 December 1998

I'm having a happy day today. I've been spoken-for for three months and three days. I've got whole days of free time (well until three in the afternoon) and I have lots of friends.
I started making a virtual christmas card for those of my friends with internet connections last night, and it isn't looking too shabby, just a bit sparse and plain. But I'll work on it before I send people the url.
I had to go into University today and picked up my reinrollment (?spelling?) pack, they were supposed to be sent out but the uni computer had screwed up my address. I think I'm gonna do a double degree chemistry/english since I doubt I'll get into pharmacy.
Then I went to town and bought something I wanted, got too much change, went back and gave the extra change back to the lady in the shop, got really guilty about buying myself stuff when I should be buying christmas presents and then came home.
Now I'm trying to decide if I should keep the thing for myself or give it to someone else for christmas. The midget would like it, and Nina (well, her real name is Natasha, but the story is long and ends in "Bye George") would appreciate it. But I WANT IT FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well, buh-bye for now.

Wednesday, 2 December 1998

2 December 1998

I'm doing the whole festive season depression thing. Life sucks. I'm being made to babysit for atleast two and a half hours a day, unpaid. I'm really hating my mother. The fact she's shagging the boarder doesn't improve my opinion of her at all. I kind of hope she picks up something nasty and dies, slowly and painfully.
Though I got a bit of a cheer up today, a friend of mine, Rachel, stopped by with a big pottle of alcoholic ice cream. Mmmmmmmm, ice cream.
Well, I'm too grumpy to write much more, so buh-bye.
I did get real mail today though, even if it was a bulk sent photocopied Christmas letter, from Fangurl. She sent me my first christmas card of the year with it too. The funny thing is that I sent her a letter the day before, so they kinda pasted on the way.

Monday, 30 November 1998

30 November 1998

I've been going out with my significant other for three months today. Which is really amazing considering the longest relationship I've ever had before was only a couple of weeks.
This morning I started another webpage for my Palladium stuff, but it doesn't actually have anything on it yet so I won't give a link. Well actually I'm bored so I will.
I also had to go to Student Job Search, I am a job hunter and all. And then I went to the library and issued "Slinky Malinki - Catflaps" by Lynley Dodd, "The Cat in the hat" by Dr Seuss and "The pinkish, purplish, bluish egg" by Bill Peet to help me in my attempt to write a childrens book, and "Pyramids" by Terry Pratchett just coz I've read it before so I can read it again without having to use my brain at all.
Well I can't think of anything else to write, so Buh-bye.

Thursday, 26 November 1998

26 November 1998


Didn't do much today. Added some poems I tidied up last night to my web page. Went to the library and issued three Bill Peet books and one Maurice Sendak (Where the wild things are :)). I'm trying my hand at writing childrens stories, so thought reading books by some of the greats could only help.
Well that's it for now. My life is to dull to write much more. Buh-bye.

Tuesday, 24 November 1998

24 November 1998

24 November 1998
Wahoo, its Tuesday. Happy happy joy. I was going to start being extremely candid about things in here BUT then I found out people have actually been reading it. How bored are people? It worries me that someone out there has such a dull life.
Well as it is, I have nothing much to write. My hunney is still studying for exams, so I'm feeling a tad lonesome. But really, when it come right down to it, I'm just a clingy guy. Which is kinda scary. But I have my Amylase so it's not all bad :o).
I went to a cruddy lil sixth former party this morning, they were celebrating the start of the christmas holidays. I was so dull, everyone was either on the computer, the playstation or in the queue to use either of them :(.
Well I should go start a real mail letter to Rachael, a friend of mine in Wellington, I haven't heard a thing of her since the STAT exam.
Buh-bye

Friday, 20 November 1998

20 November 1998

20 November 1998
Yesterday I went window shopping and found a couple of CDs I wanted, one which I bought at the time (Cosi) and one that I brought today (Labyrinth). So I'm now really poor :(. I have to learn not to spend money i can afford to spend.
Well, I think, as it's Friday, I should head to town and be sociable (is that a word?). Buh-bye.

Tuesday, 17 November 1998

17 November 1998

17 November 1998
I am so bored. I have no money. And I won't have any until the communtiy wage payments start and I don't think thats till decemeber sometime :o(.
I went window shopping today. It was kinda fun. No-one has any Mama Cass Elliot Albums though, and I looked everywhere I could think of.
Well, I have nothing much to say today. So Buh-bye for now.

Monday, 16 November 1998

16 November 1998

16 November 1998
I'm having a warm fuzzy day today. The sky is clear, its warm and sunny. I saw BEAUTIFUL THING last night, it is so great. Though the soundtrack has songs that aren't in the movie and the movie has songs that aren't on the soundtrack, but it was mostly the same. But both are still very cool (spot the Mama Cass fan). And the movie is so great I think I'll keep the video in my lil' collection. I also got an email from someone I had a crush on during 97.
Well I'm off to enjoy the day.
Have Fun.

Thursday, 12 November 1998

12 November 1998

12 November 1998
I've spent today further practising the art of sloth. I spent most of the day downloading MP3 files (which I will obviously delete tomorrow, maybe). Other than that, today has achieved nothing for me. And it is raining, lots. And kinda windy for dunedin too.

Wednesday, 11 November 1998

11 November 1998

11 November 1998
I'm on holiday. On monday I failed STAT115. Then yesterday I helped one of the friends move out of her hostel. And now I'm all alone in Dunedin, with no friends :^(.
Now I'm sitting home writing poetry and watching movies videoed off Sky. And generally practising the fine art of sloth. Well it can only get better.

Saturday, 7 November 1998

7 November 1998

7 November 1998
I am yet to start my stats study, and the exam is on the ninth. Three guesses who is going to fail :o).
I went to a party last night that kind of sucked, but got better later on. And I twisted my knee and it hurts :~(. Nothing much happening in my life except a growing fear of STAT115.

Tuesday, 3 November 1998

2 November 1998

2 November 1998
Spent today getting my Community Wage setup so that I have something to live on once my student allowance runs out. I also bought a manga Sailor Moon notebook :).
I had a great weekend, went to a halloween dance dressed as "robin the goodfellow" with pointy ears, a crown of flowers and ivy, a bright orange tunic (made from curtaining) and a heck of a lot of glitter(which is rather uninclined to come out of my hair).
Have Fun

(Originally published on geocities)

Wednesday, 28 October 1998

27 October 1998

27 October 1998
Just had my Biochem exam, three guesses who failed :). So to cheer myself up I bought "Am I The Same Girl" by Dusty Springfeild.
Well, I might luck out and pass *fingers, toes, ankles, necks etc crossed*. But I guess I just wasn't destined to be a drug dealer.

(Originally published on geocities)

Sunday, 25 October 1998

24 October 1998

24 October 1998
Well my biology exam was yesterday and I have probably failed, joy. I have Biochem on tuesday so I should be studying, and just using this study break but I can't think of anything to add to it right now..... So.... I'm taking questions, email me (use the anon. email on the geoguide if you don't want me to know who asked) with things you think I should be telling about myself, and if I feel it wouldn't scare people too much I'll try and honestly reply to them. And in the process make this page a little more interesting.

(Originally published on geocities)