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Thursday, 27 July 2023

Me:  I just don’t like gay men touching me.  They’re gross.


Str8 psychodynamic psychotherapist:  This sounds like a trauma response, we need to examine this.


Gay clinical psychologist:  Seems fair, nothing to examine here.





Okay, I am unfairly positing this before we have a assessment session explicitly on trauma, but the “you’ve experienced trauma but you aren’t traumatised” line has come up on multiple occasions now.  And the very different reading of the same things from the last professional who was trying to decode my brain has me wondering which biases are where.

Maybe the psychotherapist was overcorrecting on his own innate homophobia.  Maybe the psychologist has just dated men enough to also have decided the touch of gay men is not worth it.

Maybe all the bias is mine in my interpretation of how they interpreted my interpretations….

That needs more layers.

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