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Though a "Diary" my online diary is a work of FICTION.

It may at times strongly reflect actual events of my life, often how I honestly perceived them and display my genuine reactions. But not always and everything contained within should be treated as a fiction.

This is also a personal diary, so by reading it you are violating my privacy. And as it is a personal diary you are not allowed to hold anything you read in it against me, as you shouldn't have been reading it anyway.

Also, this diary is not to be read by anyone who has gone out with me, would like to go out with me in the future, or suspects I may like to go out with them.






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Saturday, 12 October 2019

Sleepless again

My brain decided sleeping was not allowed and spent the night coming up with ridiculous elaborate plans to kill myself while framing Shitlord for murder.
Because prison seemed too much like the only thing I could do to him that would hurt him at all.
But he would still win too much from that.

The fact I can't sleep is still him winning.

Also, now that this post exits if he ever murders me he will be able to use this to get away with it.  I am pretty certain he has too many other men on the go to bother murdering me.  He seems too busy to bother with anything except the occasional creepy attempt to manipulate and control - I assume because he thinks I will be easily won back into his direct power.

Or maybe he is just so broken it is the only way he knows how to interact - and that possibly makes him more dangerous to my wellbeing.

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