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Wednesday, 8 January 2020

Wednesday, I think

On the way to my counsellor appointment today, while congratulation my progress in that I can now listen to "I Have Friends" without crying, I discovered that I still cannot do the same with "She Used to be Mine" - the 'she is lonely, most of the time' line breaks me.

More of a person than I was, but still have a way to go.

The counselling session also featured being congratulated for my progress.  Raging about how much of an arsehole Shitlord is in his continued attempts to keep hold of my strings while entirely failing to treat me like a human.  Apparently I no longer defend his behaviour and am just angry - and I am told this is a very good change.
And I think I convinced my counsellor to watch Crazy Ex Girlfriend - because I push the show on everyone.  It is almost at Wonderfalls levels from back in the day for how much I encourage it on people.

Otherwise today significantly was just zoning out and achieving bugger all.
At about 1630 this afternoon the delivery guy arrived with my mattress, and to take away the loan mattress.  I am so looking forward to sleeping in my bed with it being my bed again.

For all that they said nothing was wrong with it, they replaced a lot of it and it now feels much more like the sample one I tried in the store and less like the weird sloping inwards thing I had.

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