Still no keys

I have to leave the house to go to class, knowing that he still has my keys.
I trust him not to use them only because I trust his laziness and disinterest.  Because I can no longer trust him.

After again not enough sleep, though about five hours (which is good by recent standards (and only panicked awake once when a creak made me think he was letting himself in)), I was awake early and again my Messenger app was proudly declaring the other guy online.  I should have blocked him already, as at about 6am I really wanted to message and apologise for allowing myself to be told to disbelieve everything he had said when he messaged me.
Sensibly I ignored the urge.  It is not for me to tip off the new guy that I was more than a friend, or that the Semi-Imaginary One is untrustworthy.  Though possibly has told the guy all about me, as the pictures suggest he likes this guy a lot more than he ever liked me.

I want my four years and eleven months back.


Also, discussed a couple of things that happened during the 'relationship' with people over the weekend that I had been uncomfortable about at the time.  Seems I was probably right to be uncomfortable about them.  There were times when he made it pretty clear he wasn't a good guy and I had overlooked them as hurtful anomalies.

In positive news, I wasn't immediately disappointed to have not died in my sleep this morning.  Still a bit disappointed to be alive, but not directly at the failing the die overnight part.
Improving.