Not sure which was the possible triggers it was, but last night I woke only about 90 minutes after going to bed properly and then lay awake for a very long time, too caught up in emotional bullshit for my quarterarse understanding of mindfullness to be able to help.
I finally got to sleep at some point after the sky was starting to get light - which is not a great sign at this time of year.
And then I slept through my alarm for almost 2 hours.
Great start to my last day of classes for the year.
Also, it turned out yesterday that I can now listen to Rachel Bloom's "I have friends" without crying. The utter certainty that none of my friends like me was something that came from Shitlord's treatment on me (whether he meant for that outcome or not). Tiny steps in the progress of working through damage he did to me.
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