Why is it that I can barely remember anything from my whole trip to Canada but my brain is digging up so many "incompatible truths" that the Semi-Imaginary One told over the years?
So many tiny inconsequential lies, many of which I spotted at the time and my brain is currently parading them in front of me. I should probably be trying to write them down as I won't have any chance of remembering them if we ever actually try to talk things through.
I really thought we would always be friends, because I am me. But I also thought we were already friends enough that, for all our relationship has never been great, when it ended it would happen in a far more human way.
The worst part is that, history suggests, I will always love him. I have never entirely stopped loving anyone once they are in there.
And I am not certain the person I love existed at all. I want to think that side of him is really there, but current evidence suggests otherwise.
In happier news, the computer game I have been hunting for for days turned out to already be something I had got and installed. In the UGH of this week I had failed to notice that I was doing it.
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